Inside Out & Upside Down

2009-09-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SO SO DAMN PISSED OFF WITH THIS BITCH AT STARBUCKS TODAY!
Seriously what is her damn problem! She makes my blood boil, and I had to resist hurling verbal abuses at her after what she had done, and mutter them all in my head which was already exploding from anger. In the end I couldn't resist, I shouted Bitch directed targeted all shooting straight at her only!!!!

Firstly, Tano and I were sitting at this table studying in Starbucks Novena. Then it became a little crowded, so the staff asked us if she could take one chair, for that bitch and her daughter at the table behind us. So naturally we gave her the seat, and that bitch didn't even thank us, who cares I don't. But the chair rightfully belonged to our seat. Then that bitch started to gossip about us, studying in places like this, have to spend a lot of money of coffee, stay there the whole day etc. So I told Tano that she's talking about us, then we saw her staring at us! Tano wrote on the paper that she's staring. I replied that I know, I can see from my peripheral vision. And then that bitch started to gossip even more!! God knows to who about what so interesting about us. She even mentioned my school Convent girls sth sth sth, I bet she peeked at my file. Irritating to the max, and she kept staring straight at us. Not like we were laughing or talking very loudly, we were just studying!!! I got damn annoyed, I told Tano, let me teach you a new jap word : suge mukatsuku. Maybe that bitch knows Jap, I don't give two hoots. After a lot of her stupid bulky eyes staring at us, she finally moved away to another seat, and she muttered off 'qi si ren'. Tano and I were puzzled at her weirdness, then she walked back to us, and scolded saying you are so rude you should learn some manners from your parents! That did it, after staring, she talked about my school, and she had to drag my parents in. I retorted whats your problem, bitch! Maybe I shouldn't have done that, but I didn't care, she was so damn freaking rude that idiot! Then she walked off, and when she was taking tissue paper, our eyes happened to meet, she didn't back off, she continued staring like crazy, and I just stared back too. While staring, she kept taking tissue papers non stop, like over 10 pieces crazy woman she's the cause of global warming its entirely her fault that the whole earth and even me are boiling up! Tano kept telling me to just laugh at her, so that she will be soo pissed, but I really couldn't bring myself to do it, I was seriously boiling! I wanted to just march up to her and ask her what is your damn problem bitch, why did you say such horrible things! Seriously, I hate her hate her hate hate hate hate her for ruining my day, and from then on I couldn't really concentrate on studying anymore, and I have a damn paper tomorrow and I really cannot get that incident out of my head that I'm rambling on here. I hope she reads this because she has done injustice to the world by just being born! I hate her! Such weird people exists! I am really so pissed! totemo okotta, nanka nakitai! demo, namida ha denai.

2009-06-12T22:01:00.003+08:00

It's been a pretty long hiatus again. Just a bit sick of blogging, more interested in building up my farm on FarmTown now! FB game once again haha shit I'm being an addict here. Some activities in my life perk me up rather than the usual studying for (C)razy(T)ests 2!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EVIL LIM MY LOVELY NOISE-MAKER!!!
Hope and bet you had a pleasant surprise, which you almost foiled our plan by going out early. What are the odds of bumping into you, and we did! XD! Love you to bits you crazy zoodledoo! Happy 18th! (:
P.S you were on your best behaviour sitting on the roadside curb, blindfolded and listening to every thing that SaraBra told you! So proud of you!

Sent Coach off at the airport on that day too. Gave him the album, made with love. The video filmed and edited with love. And the box that says Coach Believe. Yupp, made with love too. It just feels so weird that coach is not around in Singapore anymore.

Watched Dance Subaru a rather long time ago with my momma, the show was good, and I sure missed going out shopping and movie-ing with her. Whatever I buy, the cashier just looks towards her, the one with the purse XD!

More array of fun next week, when the parents are out of town hahaha!

2009-06-04T16:58:00.002+08:00

Weeks have past and I'm still adjusting to post-soccer life. The diet has not changed much, but the exercise sure have, and I can't keep this up or I'll turn into lard.

Went for a Primary 4 Tao Nan Power Up Camp recently, as a volunteer. Was a station master. It was pretty fun and interesting, watching all the little kids run about, and their childlike innocence when they play. Took charge of the playdoh game and the drawing game with Tixi, imagine running that game with a playful bunch of 10 years old, 8 times! By the time the last group came, we were dying to drive them away, oh they really drove us crazy. Night hike was kinda fun too. Bonded with Tixi and waffles at the back of NTUC, under the bright lamppost, waiting for the kids. Campfire was good, we SMs were like the VIPS, we were invited to sit right in the middle, and we really live up to our SMs name, we were really really high. Dancing along to Nobody by the Wonder Girls, cheering our lungs out and singing all the campfire songs louder than the kids. Telematch was good, we had the authority to shoot the kids and GFs with water guns and water bombs!! Oh and Jolyn's brother is super cute, he told his friend "I thought you wanted to skip very fast, why so slow? Go faster, I let you come my house and drink coca cola" c(:

Some kids just amaze me,

This boy used the playdoh to make a very lifelike telephone. His friend kept trying to touch it, and he shouted at his friend "Don't touch la!" His friend shouted back "What la! I need to call my mother!"

A bunch of kids were playing charades. I told one girl to act out 'Finding Nemo', she acted out the 'finding' part first, but apparently, her friends thought she was 'King Kong'!! Double D if I were her.

And not to forget Tixi's and my first encounter on Day 1 with 'Lehman???', this boy with anger management problem. The teacher asked us to help watch the door, making sure that he doesn't run out. Oh boy he freaks me out totally, he was banging on the toilet door so hard, it seems like it was gonna break into pieces, shouting "I HATE THIS" and "I DON'T WANNA GO FOR CAMP!" He is sooooo scaryy! Even the teachers were afraid of him.

CIP Adopt-a-puppet the next day at Chen Su Lan Methodist Children's Home. It was fun too, but I think I had enough of kids after that, with TNS and Puppet whoa! Had a great time eating and eating and eating after that, first with Ice Cube, then ChompChomp, and more Pandan cake and chips, strawberries at Tano's house (:

2009-05-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!

We created history on 22nd May 2009!!

The feeling is so surreal. Can't believe its over just like that, we just wheezed through that 1 and half year journey, with so many different chapters in our story, all the hard times. I'm really impressed with how we pulled through and overcame all the difficulties. All the more I just love VJSG TTM (To The Max) !

Celebrated our victory at the usual KFC, family feast for my table (: Some crazy girls went to watch midnight show until 5am!! Saturday morning was 'adopt-a-puppet' with Gling and Tano, followed by bubble tea and pastamania. Met the dick, the cat and the evil for dinner at 'not so healthy' Burger King. Band Concert at VJC, left at interval. BBQ at Bethany's, where we played charades almost 5 hours straight. Watched the movie, Taken, and then headed to ECP for Saucony Passion Run where we worked till we became awfully light headed and 'sehhhh' (if that's how you spell it, the dialect word Tano had a hard time teaching me last time) Sock and I finally had a taste of our long awaited fried yellow chicken from the malay stall today! It was heavenly! Guys soccer match today, and they concluded all the seasons with a huge bang and glory by winning! DOUBLE CHAMPS yo!! The atmosphere was crazy!! Mr Tan treated us to Pizza Hut!! And we topped it up with Cafe Cartel's half price oreo cheesecakes and banana rum cakes after 9.

Just count the calories we've consumed over the past few days, I probably need my GC!!

2009-05-17T11:27:00.003+08:00

Fair mix of ups and downs lately, which leaves me feeling very confused.
Really happy and satisfied with myself that I've finally learned how to slide for soccer, although it gives me sore elbows, bruised knees and shoulder and near-astroburns. Plus I accidentally fouled my teammates by doing a sliding tackle from the back XD But the feeling is so fun, 'cause I've always been visualising myself sliding the ball away from the attacker when she's about to score, but I never did have the guts to try. Always admired Xiang and Poansie for how they slide, heehee and now coach taught us (:

Yesterday was a fairly long training, which made us all pretty tired. Met Tano and Lisa and bused all the way down to Bad-Nee-O's house. Watched ManU vs Arsenal with Coaches and the team. Oh Yayyy Man U's Champs yo! It was super hilarious catching it together, its like watching it in VJSG form with coach calling our names, and 'scolding' us for missing the shots!! Tuti totally made us laugh, with our silly imaginations about her. Last night sure was fun. Thanks BadNeeO!

On a post note, we won MJC 5-0 to be on the top of the table. Faced RI(JC) in the Semifinals last Thursday at JBS, 14th May, what a significant date for us. Won 10-1. Kudos to Sher who played the full game, I'm so prous of yous Shersiii!! Now VJSG is through to the Finals coming Friday!! ((: Really exciting, its a must watch match all!

Down side just leaves me totally down and I don't even feel like talking about it. Just wanna vent out the horrible feeling and erase it all from my friends' heads. I hate being 'in the middle', freaking sandwiched and I DON'T wanna make a choice! I CAN'T make a choice like this. This is so tormenting, I wish I could skip school tomorrow. I know I'm not facing up to it, but I don't want to. I'm afraid.

Make history, VJSG. 1 more time, 22nd May 2009

2009-05-01T13:20:00.002+08:00

Oh! Shit! No! I'm sick )): Down with a stupid sorethroat and eye infection. Told Mr Lee that I was going home, and he went to tell Mr Ong that I wasn't feeling well. How vague, that ended up with such a big hooha 'cause of the swine flu, that I had to sit there for 10 minutes, taking my temperature twice. Throughout, I kept telling the guy that I had no fever, but my eye keeps tearing and my throat hurts. He didn't listen. Eventually when he released me, he said "No fever", I told you so but you didn't wanna listen! Sheesh.

Match on Wednesday and we won TJC 12-0 ((: Yayy.
Was given the chance to start once again and I'm really really happy. Saw Natesha and Marcia!! Man speaking of the match!! I'm so sad! The only time that my parents came to support, they came at the wrong time, when the match just ended!!! And I don't know if I will get to play much in the next few matches because Vidic will be back, so Rafael will be benching I suppose! XD!

Resting like a log these 2 days at home, sleeping as much as a swine does! Went for a relaxing swim today with my bro, boy I kinda miss that chlorine smell haha!

2009-04-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

Getting really really tired.
Falling into a deeep slumber.

Anyway! We won SRJC 12-0!
I'm super happy and glad for the whole game!

Happy belated birthday Huixin!
Happy belated birthday Zabuza!
Happy belated birthday Lump!

I love you all millions!

2009-04-19T09:11:00.002+08:00

Ooh I'm gonna trim my hair again later.

Past 2 trainings were so not gentle, I had lots of hard knocks with bumpy bruises, sprained ankle, wobbly-feeling bones and tight muscles. But it feels tad good in a weird sense XD!

2009-04-15T20:24:00.002+08:00

5 days since his passing.
4 days at the wake, has kinda taken its toll on me. I can see my panda eyes already, from the lack of sleep. One procession was the ultimate, it totally rendered me deaf for at least half an hour, the noise is nothing I've ever heard, man my ears are still ringing. Mandai brought back hateful thoughts, but I have to learn to let go. I know that he is in a better place now, free from suffering. The lotus picture that the ashes formed after burning those paper, assured me much more 'cause the adults say that it means he has become a Buddha. If it forms footprints, it means that the departed has reincarnated into either human or animals. So I guess Buddha is the best for him (:

It's back to school tomorrow. I'm faced with Physics SPA first thing, and I have no reference to study from :\

I heard from the girls that we won MI 10-0 today, brilliant la you girls! I'm so proud!
Anyway, thank you all, for your care and concern. I'm alright now, really. Love the people man!

2009-04-11T17:46:00.003+08:00

I just had to blow it.
Just Had To Freaking Do So.

I am so annoyed at myself, so pissed with those guys, so scared of Monday to come and its future, so freaking afraid that what I think it is will come true.

Come On! Trouble always associates with me and that Napoleon, since Day 1 I stepped into school. This is not the first, but I definitely hope it will be the last. Just as I thought things might get better, and I just had to do something so foolish, so uncalled for, now we're all in freaking hot soup! Uggghhhhh I don't know what to freaking do anymore someone tell me slap me and tell me!

Afternoon out was refreshing, I didn't return. But once I stepped in, you had to vent all your frustrations on me. I have my own freaking ones thanks. Raawwrrr this is all shit shit shit shit shit and more SHIT! I don't want Monday to come but I have to face the damn music. I'm not running away from what I did. I just don't want whatever is to come, to be in that manner, give me any other shit, I can take, but just not that please. Coach talked to me on FB just now, it really gave me hope. I believe, I trust, I hope. Thank you Coach, I know you won't see this, but really, thank you.

Stupid rants - please ignore this post totally.

2009-04-09T22:02:00.001+08:00

The world is a huge disappointment.

F R E A K I N G

U N F A I R.

I wish I could change it.
I wish I had kicked harder for training.
I wish I had something concrete to begin with.
I wish I had gone running after training.
I wish it was all a mistake.
I wish I had vented out everything with the ball and the net.
I wish it was different.

1 hour of searching for the ball-totally did nothing but added on to the frustrations. Plus the extras in the way of doing nothing but hindering, it was purely annoying. I can't stand seeing, I wanna do something. I am not lamenting about that fact, but instead of how freaking unjust the damn bloody whole thing is. UGH I wanna just scream and sprint my guts out right NOW!

Feeling Fab today was spoiler, I shouldn't have come to school at all.

On another note, supposedly happier but nothing is going in that smiley direction now.
Braces are out.
Won HCI 8-0 for our first match of the season.
I got to play right wing, although not for very long.
Still, I'm glad for the opportunity to.

Why.Oh.You.Ass.You.See.Kay.China.Man

2009-04-05T09:23:00.003+08:00

Just had a really really good laugh watching the teamnight 07 videos. Karen's batch, with mickey's army. The Indian dance is totally hilarious, the exercise video and Lucky LeLe's Curry!!! Oh boy I really miss all of them watching that (:

3 good trainings after a few bad ones, and many trainings which ended off without stretching!! Just hope the muscle aches don't come! Free scrimmages are really fun, and I kinda enjoyed Saturday, playing right wing all over again. Although I suck, my cross ins are like wth, and I kept thinking I was a defender, having defensive instincts instead of attacking ones, haha but it was still fun. Set pieces was pretty awesome too, trigger number and secret codes! I got a new bruise, which makes total count 4 now, 2 crediting to my fav budd JPsie, hahaha!

Season is coming really really soon, I'm super excited for it! Wednesday's THE DAY! I'll be back with good news. Promise.

Tuesday's a really exciting day too! I'll be a new girl: without my braces!! Double yay for the 2 years of metal teeth! GlingGling and badneenee, rawrrawr no more metal teeth partners, but I'll be back with retainers in a week! XD

2009-03-29T12:00:00.002+08:00

1 week had past just like that. Results gotten back. The ultimate disappointment in some, especially for those that I had my hopes held so high because of the intense amount of effort I put in. But right now, I've dropped all focus on studies, just trying to drift through these 2 months of school, without lagging, and instead concentrate solely on the upcoming season. Speaking of season, soccer trngs are everyday now. I'm getting really tired, but I have to hang in there because everyone around me is doing so to. And I am SO NOT going to give up now, after all that we've gone through. This is what I've been looking forward to. There were really really bad trainings, adding on to the fact that the papers I've gotten back that day were double boo, it was one hella emo day. Special thanks to Tixi the Small, for being with me, crying for 1 hour on our own, throwing out all the burdens. I know its a freaking wrong timing to be breaking down at this point of time, but if not now, wonder how long more can I hold it in. Emo Budd and I are gonna be strong now, no more tears and we'll just push each other on.

Tuesday was a halfday, really fun time spent at Rachel's house. Scamming her, getting scared instead, eating all her food, watching the movie DOUBT, playing Wii, trashing her in Boxing and Tixi in Tennis. It was pure fun and enjoyment, I need little joys like these (:

Had our 2nd round of testimonial match yesterday. I was subbed in the 2nd half, and I really enjoyed the game, despite the uber hot sun, that made my toes feel like they're on fire in the boots. Chasing down every ball, I like that. Seeing all the seniors once again was really nice, a pity Xiang couldn't come and Bob didn't stay long. It brought back all the memories when they were still around though, and it sure was fun. Like PeiQi taking forever in the toilet, incessant teasing of LeLe again..Well, the outcome of the match was finally good, a win for the juniors alas. This is our last friendly after 17 matches, that concludes the pre-season I guess? With just a few more trainings and we're into our season, I'm all hyped up. But yet there's this little dread in me that I don't want the season to end, don't want soccer to end. Because then it will just be books notes and me, and that's really gay and F-A-T!

2009-03-22T12:39:00.003+08:00

SOCCER CAMP '09 WAS ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT!!

The first double trng was rather horrid, something possessed all of us to under-perform and we disappointed not only ourselves, but Coach and the juniors as well, so much so that JTS was cancelled. The CPR talk was really weird, with a 1-to-1 kiss with Mini Anne. Oohlala Pervet De'cruz was excited for that XD! Movie of the Night: Some golf show about Francis Ouimet, a caddie boy who outshone over the famous stars like Harry Vardon and Ted Ray. Another of those inspiring movies that Coach always choose for us (:

Woke up at 5 plus the next morning to go for an early morning run with Coach. End up, it was a SCAM! Coach treated us to Macs Breakfast!! (: What a delight! Back to school and ended up in trouble with TYH for staying over illegally. What a spoiler.

Match against NJC. I'm really really glad for this opportunity to be able to play the whole entire game, given that chance to really step up as a senior, shouting my lungs sore to push up, shift and even waking up our own ideas. I swear I've never shouted so much and so loudly in my life before. I felt so much adrenaline rush, I was so focus on my one goal that my stupid partella injury did not even bother me throughout the game, also thanks to ZhangQian for her partella band [: It was a great match for me, and I treasure it alot, except for some stupid mistakes here and there. I'm sorry to the team, to Coach, for that stupid last goal conceded. I've learnt and I promise there won't be a second time like that. I will learn how to be a proper last man. Versatility is the word.

2nd trng was better, although not perfect. Following it was JTS! The juniors are perfect BBQ-ers, and oh-boy, they are the bomb when it comes to dancing!! "Doncha wish your girlfriend was perv like Jes" hahaha. Three Cheers and Kudos for the Juniors of VJSG!!! Coach and Nat sang songs to end off the night (: Headed to Gling's house for the night's rest. Her house is ultra big, with thousands of pillows, bolsters and mattresses. Betnyny and I actually had 4 sleeping bags to ourselves!

Woke up at 5 plus the next morning AGAIN to start our day off with 3 tasks!
#1 Hike back to school in 30min. We did it!
#2 Get the whole team through the spider web (in 15 min, we failed) Eventually We did it!
#3 Get the bag at the top of the container classroom. We did it!

Butbutbut! I'm really really really really really super sorry to the team and coach, for breaking the trophy. Although you guys may say its okay or whatsoever, I really take the blame onto myself and I'm so sorry. I told Coach this, and I will tell you guys, that if you give me the chance, I will work my very very best, to earn a gold trophy back for you. I promise. Girls, please help me make this not an empty promise. Once again, I'm really sorry, and we'll work hard together for our last final journey!

Anw, lastly was Gauntlet with LeLe the Queen as Falcao's faci. Running alongside Jehh-Min and the juniors Rachel Rachelle Cheryl Rasyiqah, was a really awesome experience I would not trade for another. Although we boarded the wrong bus, couldn't settle on a specific mode of transport, shamelessly begging for money, hallucinating about bread, getting chased out of NLC and ran and ran and ran, it was really really fun. Ended off with team-golden-pillow-dinner, giving out of jerseys and sharing session. It was one emo ending, but those tears and laughter will always spur me on to work even harder, for the Team VJSG that I love. Quoting the perv Jes, You guys are fun, I love you all. (:

Guilt is a horrible feeling. I can't seem to get rid of it. I guess only time can mend it. Both incidences have certainly taught me lessons, lessons I will never forget and never commit ever ever again. But the guilt I have in me, shucks the feeling totally sucks. I understand how Sock feels, when I spoke to her last night, after all the emo sharing. I know I should stop self reproaching as it won't help anything, but ultimately, its hard not to when it fell right off my very own hands. Anyway, Thank you Xin and Ame, for trying so hard to fix my mistake, thank you for all the hugs, Sock, Tano, Mentee, Mentor, Perv and the team. This is random, but speaking to Sock after the match, she reminded me of this: Thank you Nyny, for giving me the confidence to try as last man. You were the one who encouraged me to do so, despite my wavering beliefs of self doubt. And to Ame, I love Climbing, Thank you for last year and this year's camp climbing experiences! Without you guys, I don't know what I'll do.

Singularity in Purpose-that I am all for it now! Bring it on!

2009-03-18T09:48:00.002+08:00

It's the March hols once again (:
Went for a good swim after so long. Shucks, I think my speed in the pool is deteriorating, I'm getting slower ):

Met Lum and Fang, had fun with cereals, vouchers and 'cheating' the provision shop, Lum's a total pro at that!

Went for a sleepover with Ning at Yilin's. Watched 4 movies in less than 24hours, my eyes are gonna pop soon anytime! Had loads of fun with Koizora, Coming Soon, License to Wed and 10 Things I Hate About You. Coming Soon is pretty frightening, adding on to the effects: The whole row was empty beside me (Or maybe it wasn't) Stupid Chaba freaked me out. CHABAAAAA! Had a feast load of food before leaving for school. Luckily all the food had digested before the match.

Match against International Soccer Academy. We won 3-2 I think. It was a good match for me, and I'm happy (: It felt really good to run my guts out for the team, chasing down every ball, I felt extra motivated yesterday, don't know where that rush came from, but its good! Had a late late team dinner, much later than usual :|

Watching more movies online now: Taiyou no Uta and Marley & Me!!! I shall officially zone out of the world until my parents come back tonight, with just the computer and I. Soccer camp starting tomorrow! Am looking forward (: Especially to Gauntlet!

2009-03-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

So many highlights since my last post! Life has been pretty fun these days, I'm starting to see things in a brighter perspective, I believe there's a happier note to everything. Could be the book that I'm reading, The Last Lecture, which is a small book but I'm taking eons to read it ( I don't know whyyyy ). Its a pretty good book I reckon, it made more of a thinking and appreciative person.

HIGH-lights:
* Ceee Teees are over!!! Finallyyy, gone are the days of hard mugging and non-stop hello panda-ing! Good or bad grades, I really tried my best. I just wanna improve from promos so I'm crossing all my fingers and toes now!

* A levels results are out! Our soccer seniors are unbelievable!! They are super super super clever, they inspire me! Congrats dearest smarts #1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8!

* Happy belated birthday Pat!

* Happy belated birthday Mandy! I'm sorry I couldn't go for the outing at night! Fu Lin Yong Tau Foo was a new experience!

* Kicking around with the soccer girls after a long deprived hiatus. Dinner with them at Blk 85, best Ahballing!

* Sleepover at Betterknees's! Her bed is super shiok, so much so that I fell asleep on it accidentally, and ended up sleeping on her tummy! Tootie's breakfast was scrumptious-8 Fatty Paus, 4 sandwiches, 4 drinks XD!

* Early morning VOG torch relay with coach around the school (:]) , followed by 2.4km (:|)

* Watch soccer match at Pervert De'cruz's house.

* Happy birthday Dick!

NON highlights:
Liverpool vs Man Utd, 4-1 )))):
As quoted by Rachel Termite, "This is tragic"...

Temporary liberation from books and notes feels so good, sooooo gooooood! I'm gonna wake up when the sun is high high high up in the sky tomorrow!

2009-03-01T18:26:00.002+08:00

Beaming with pride.

Never did I expect or even dream to be in the top 2o for CrossCountry. Looks like all that trainings and intervals, even when I was grumbling, was not for nothing. 17th, or 15th (minus IP kids category), I'm just really really really happy. One thing I can really take away from this is what Coach said before the race, about not listening to your body when you are tired, listen to your heart. It came right to me at the last leg of the race, making me push hard for my team (: To add on to the happiness, our lovely seniors and grandseniors came back to support us! Now which other team has that!

Eeeevil grannnyy dear, intro-ed to me the world's best waffles! All the waffles in PP, Kovan or AMK, are nothing compared to the one at SingPost! Everyone, GO TRY IT! It's crispy and ultra delicious :D

I get the hint, I get the gist. I'm backing off for now, until its time. But by then, it might just be too late. I'm trying to push all the other thoughts away to the back of my head, and focus on what's important to me now.

2009-02-22T11:42:00.002+08:00

My comp's been out for 2 weeks or so, it was attacked and no one got around fixing it until recently ><

I'd rather not blog out my thoughts and feelings now, gotten rather used to penning them down in my own diary. Comments from others also kept coming in about what's wrong and stuffs, so yeah I'm keeping my thoughts to myself!

Fun Facts (like what I always do to Bethany-Did You Know?) :
! Trngs' include lots of running these days, I feel like I know ECP very well already!
! VJC XC is coming right up! Coach is picking team.
! Watched Slumdog Millionaire with Sock, Xin, Tixi, Nyny, Rachel-it was a really fun event.
! Spontaneous sleepover at Yilin's last night, it was totally impromptu-on-the-spot-set kinda.
! The fruit stall auntie has been giving me lots of free fruits the past few weeks, I guess she recognises me as the girl who buys like $3 worth of fruits on a daily basis!
! I'm drifting (apart)
! I found out secrets that I shouldn't know
! CTs are in 2 weeks, and I still thought they were in 4 weeks.
! I keep seeing my neighbour around school, but I never did confirmed it was her until recently
! Matches against SMU, Queensway, NUS-I'm just glad I've got the chance to play at least a while for all those matches.
! I'm relenting, and accepting the facts now.
! I'm hungry right now, so Imma gonna fix myself a yummy sandwich!

2009-02-06T22:21:00.003+08:00

I don't like how this is going.
And its going no where that I'm sure.
Metamorphosis, a great big one.
Turn back time? Nay I wouldn't ask for that.
Get a whole new life, I tell myself.

Freaking no mood to blog, but its killing my insides slowly if I keep this up, so I need a little happiness boosters here and there.

Things that made me happy, even if its temporary:
! Skipped school on Tuesday
! Skipped school on Friday
! Played mahjong on the treehouse with Mandy BoonYew and Chee
! Movie Changeling with Tano
! Shopping with Mummy, even though all we ended up buying was mostly food

Life is exciting, with you around. But that sort of excitement, I'm not sure I can handle.

2009-02-01T12:18:00.003+08:00

Its been quite a while, so many things had come and gone, chances wasted, opportunities no more. Looking back, its just a taste of regret. My wish is still there, but my goal has become more of a dream. I'm doing all I can to get it back, if only you would listen and open your eyes to see.

Highlights of the past few days:

-CNY celebrations in school - kinda boring. Paid $1 for the Yusheng that I didn't eat and didn't 'lo'. Thai Pan with the class, followed by trng.

-Chinese New Year
Hong Baos, gambling, pineappletarts-Cookies-Loveletters-Yusheng-Bakkwa, New clothes, visiting. Lost quite a bit of money gambling :/ Was so tired out from helping Mummy at her shop the days before CNY.

-Back to school. Getting sick and tired of it. Sick like literally, I hope my voice don't turn bad, I'm doing all I can to get it right now. The gallons of water I'm gulping down..Oh Shucks I feel like a water balloon.

-Friendly against BAFC yesterday. Lost ): Went for a run after the match with Grace Su. Felt like the first time I ran with her side by side, it felt good. A good run to clear my head and reflect silently, with only the sound of footsteps and the breeze from ECP.

-Teamlunch at Subway. Napped. Family gathering. Gambled again (it's still within the 15 days of CNY) - won some recess money yay (:

Some CNY peeeekturesNing and her fetish for skinned duck!

2009-01-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

Stay strong my dear, I'll always love you.

2009-01-17T23:51:00.001+08:00

Life's a fking bitch.

Is there any more to say?

2009-01-15T22:02:00.003+08:00

I'm so overloaded with emotions, I feel like on the verge of a breakdown. But its too early, I tell myself, I gotta stay strong, its only half a month of January. I've got a lot of things inside my head, its bugging me much, I wanna talk to someone, but no one. So many issues in my head, bugging me constantly. I'm trying to put on a facade, a facade of happiness, but I guess its not working. BloodyHell I feel like shit totally. And I know I'm not one who will seek someone just to talk about whatever's bugging me. Forget it Aline Chan, get a life!

I gotta be Strong
I gotta be Independent

Trng sucked totally for me today. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't focus well, I couldn't get my left leg kicks right today, I couldn't see cause of the stupid blinding sun, ugh I hated myself so much today, I felt like kicking myself ! Asshole!

And I just can't stop thinking about it.

2009-01-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

I feel so cheated today and I can't understand why. I guess I never will because I have never really been able to. I keep telling myself to forget it. I keep trying to think of an alternative reason why so, or should I say excuse, but the matter just keeps bugging me at the back of my head. Arrgghh please go away and let me be alone in this world. I can't stand it when it changes so quickly, its like the freaking weather. You always make me sad, I don't know why I'm still here. One letter suffice: The letter L.

Hate that I love you.

2009-01-13T17:33:00.002+08:00

So school's started, its day 2 and I'm feeling the tiredness already. Thank goodness there's some sexy talk tomorrow, a good day to take a break. School's been nothing but yawns and laughter, especially meeting up with my classmates after so long. Wanling, my laughing partner is back, and to add on to our PC and IPC, we found SIPC! Mandy my slow-walker is back too, and I've decided to dissolve my resolution of 'fast walk'. I've rediscovered the joy of walking slowly, too much influence from the soccer peeps during the hols I guess, that I've to make a conscious effort to walk fast. Of course, Weiting Yanyi Fang who always walk fast, seems like Yanyi have joined the dark side.

Nothing much different about school, except that we end earlier most days, and I'm paying more attention in tutorials and lectures XD! B-O-R-I-N-G!

O's results were out yesterday. I really really wish that all our juniors can make it to VJ, by hook or by crook, through appeal or just barging their way in, its never nice to lose anyone. IJ juniors did better than our batch, but..owells comparing us to schools like Cedar and St Nicks, I have nothing to say :/ My cousin did really well, and I'm so proud of him. Yesterday felt like a day of tension, even though it had nothing much to do with me. I was staring at my phone, waiting for texts from my juniors, hoping in fear that they will text back with a smile instead of unspoken sadness.

We got back our 16PF today today. One of my comments was : I spend too much time WISHING that things will be easier or to fix themselves. HAHA!

2009-01-11T20:22:00.004+08:00

My holidays ended off with a BANG with these lovely kids. Dining at Shokudo, replay of scenes, houseflies, Slutch dessert (A Slut & a Bitch), big Canon camera and a whole new spot specially designed for camwhoring-NYDC's old campus! We had to face the risks of potential camera thieves and lots of staring though ): In the blurry rush of madness since holidays have started, or should I say, since 2008 started and I hardly had the chance to meet up with all of them anymore, I almost forgotten how absolutely FUN and amazing it was to just giggle with them, laugh at ourselves and just have a good time together. Presents exchange-the highlight, with the usual loud THANK YOUS and fighting over who gets to give out the gifts first. Thank you to the beautiful six who really made my whole holiday such a lovely one just with that one outing alone. You guys really mean the world to me and I LOVE YOU KIDDIES ! Sorry for giving only a 'grad cert', I promise better next time!

Peeektures all stolen from Juicy-the one with the pro canon:

School's starting tomorrow, OH BOY! If I though the holidays were hectic, think again.
Face it Aline Chan, life's not gonna be easy, but like what a friend said, 'hang on to the good memories'. These kids in the photos shall keep me running no matter how tired I am!

I've been really really happy these past few days, despite running myself tired by waking up at 6 plus AM, helping Mummy out at her busybee shop. Busying myself to forget, perhaps. I'd rather stick to it that way. Love is a strange thing; it heals and it hurts.

2009-01-08T14:05:00.002+08:00

What Aline did:

Dragged herself out of bed
Study
Ate a lovely meal cooked by Korkor's Girlfriend
Study
Met Bing for TauHuay
Study at Tuition Centre
Went early for consultation
Tuition = Study
Stayed back after for more consultation
Ran 4.8km !!
Study !
Study !!
Study !!!
Study !?!?

I'm going insane! Why am I even trying so damn hard for this stupid re? Cause I wanna prove to myself and those who have faith in me that I can actually do Chem. If I screw this paper up again, I'll condemn myself to eternal Hell-Of-Chem and just UGH! I'm actually starting to like and understand Chem, so pleaseee let the paper be do-able!

It's TOMORROW!!!
The Day I Die Smiling.

2009-01-06T23:15:00.004+08:00

My brains are super fried after almost 10 hours of Studying+Eating+Bumming!

Enantiomers;Coufeee;BoyFriend-BoilingPointForces;MaPa-MeltingPointPacking;Chickeeeeen;Dehydrohalogenation;
TobascoSauce;Phenolphthalein;Caramel;CisTransIsomer;
OhGloria!

Genevieve says:
no more apple bottom jeans
Genevieve says:
it's gloria's bottom jeans

MY BRAINS ARE SATURATED. Like Alkanes. OMG Great I'm Nothing But Chemistry Now. Shut Up Aline ><

2009-01-05T09:12:00.002+08:00

5 days of the New Year has past, and I'm keeping up to some of my New Year's resolutions already.

#1. I'm spending more time with my parents, helping Mummy out at her new shop which is pretty cool, collecting cash as the Boss's daughter. I still get bullied by some fierce fat auntie who raises her voice when we don't have the size to fit her huge body.

#2. I'm making a conscious effort to walk faster, at least keep pace with those around me, so far I haven't really lagged yet.

#3. I'm studying for my Chem R-paper now, I'm more into the exam mood already. 4 hours at Esplanade with The Mama & The Sister was more productive for me than if I were to study at home.

#4. Soccer? Yes I'm glad to say that the talk by the 3 of them on the 1st trng helped a lot after it has started to set in. I'm all prepared, come get me!

Anyway, BAFC match last Saturday was good, although we lost 3-1, everyone played well and it was inspiring. However, SMU match 2 days ago was not good, although we won 5-0. Disappointed in my own performance, but that shall not deter me from anything. I'll train even harder and try to be consistent in my own performance. (: I'M ALL FIRED UP!

Belated New Year's dinner with family yesterday at Ichiban Sushi. It was super shiok, I almost burst at the seams/ I feel good, I just used the present Korkor bought for me for Xmas, some peppermint foot soak from Body Shop, to revive tired feet. Hah! It was shiok as well, though pretty troublesome ><

OMG I need a new New Year's Resolution---To Lose Weight! At least 3 Freaking KG! I'm gaining at an insane rate, thanks to the amount I'm eating to replenish my hungry body after trng ))): I need to stop SNACKING! Slap me silly if I eat Junk! Hello Panda is not counted because its my current favourite, but I will limit to at most 1 pack a day HAHA!

2009-01-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

The very first training of 2009 today. Started off with quite a surprise plus the love letters and all! I really enjoyed Long Run today. The Under 16 girls weren't there with us today because they have started dreaded school!

Bus ride with her was really different today, it has not been like this for quite a while. I'm not good with words, and all the more worse with expressing my feelings. It was really weird and awkward for a while, for me. I'm just glad its all out, all that I want to say, all that I've been keeping inside me for quite some time. I really hope that this whole thing will not affect any part of our friendship, I promise to be there for you, to support you all the way, so long as you don't turn anal! XD I'll help you in whatever way I can, but please let me be myself, although I know I'm one who is easily influenced. *grins*beams*pokes*psstpsst*nudge* All the way friend, I'll be here always!

40 min LATE for tuition.
4 hours LATE to meet my Jappy Friends.
I really missed them, and the fun times we used to have, especially in Japan! Met them for a game of pool followed by dinner, where Fiona almost 'fought' with the cleaning auntie! It's a pity we all couldn't stay longer for more chat and catching up. The world is really small I realised, how everyone is indirectly connected to another. Well I guess its just Singapore, its tiny! If we stay in Singapore our whole life without viewing the world, our vision will get so clouded and all we know are people who already know each other, and the cycle repeats itself...日本行きたい

2009-01-01T20:39:00.003+08:00

New Year 2009 was spent in a different and new manner this year. I tried to strike a balance between family and friends already. Turned up at family gathering, at the insistence of my mum's and my dearest little cousins, who sure knows how to make a girl feel GUILTY! Countdown was at Coach's, with generations of 4 plus coaches. BBQ, The Noose, Taboo and just chit chatting.

Pretty tame as compared to previous years' countdown. I miss waiting by the water till the skies get dark, playing cards with Jeaness until we got caught on the Newspaper camera, camwhoring until the Fireworks lit the beautiful night scene and it was another year again. Smoshing our bodies with the crazy crowd just to get to the train station, tired by happy, all grinning because we saw fireworks.

Still, last night was pretty fun and interesting. Stayed over at Tano's, had good chat until we both zonked out. Prata in the morning, thanks the TanoPapa for the treat, all the rides and for imposing! Travelled far and wide to Mummy's New Shop which just opened today at the New Market in AMK. I love the shop, its pretty, its huge and it has really good feng shui, just in front of the toilet! XD! But business was really hella good today, maybe the toilet does bring good fortune, after peeing, people wanna shop, thats my theory. I'd love spending time with my parents, which I got to the whole afternoon today (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICH HEAH/SMALLIE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC SIM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

and

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
I hope I'd like you better than 2008!

I Miss You By Blink One Eight Two

2008-12-31T14:22:00.004+08:00

Coach gave us a pleasant surprise today. No double training, which is why I'm grinning away at home. In less than 10 hours, we're gonna have to bid 2008 goodbye, and welcome the new year ahead. I don't wanna be a J2 yet, I don't wanna be 18 yet, so many 'I don't wanna', but life's gotta go on. 2008 was full of new memories, things that happened made me smile, cry, laugh, even wanna die. But its over, whether I like it or not, and I'll just have to be thankful for everything that has happened, thankful for all the new people that has emerged in my life, for the new life in VJC.

Thank you the papa/mama/korkor for supporting me throughout, even though your incessant nagging about my soccertrngs and studies have bugged me consistently, I know your mean well.
Thank you the socceroos for being sucha great team and pushing me on forever, and believing in me. To Gen Mama & Sab Papa for giving me a cosy family heehee!
Thank you 08S62, especially my little friends whom we always go for good lunch together, walking slowly together, cabbing together, yes you WeiTing, YanYi, Mandy and Wanling.
Thank you Serangoon Buddies, I'm hardly alone when it comes to longlonglong bus rides, because of you all! Bing, Tano, Joansie, Serangoon is the bomb!
Thank you my 9 cool people who owns the cool shirt, whether you're in VJ, CJ, SR, SP or wherever, I always think about you guys and I'm missing you like crazeeeee. Please lets meet up. Thank you because I know you'll always be there, even if you're far far away. I love you all to the ultimate max. I'm sorry if I haven't been around much.
Thank you Jeaness and Gabriel, for still keeeping me in the water, I love swimming with you, but I hardly have the time. So thank you for arranging, and 'forcing' me to go (: And you, for being that bin to rant out at, and making me hang in there.
Thank you NatNg for your emails throughout, giving me those advices and pulling me through when I wanted to give up.

Coach made us reflect today, after training. Reflect on our life throughout the year. My own highlights that jump out at me when I think of 2008, how some sucked so bad, but yet some made me grin so mad!

PAE period: a good honeymoon break from O levels, beginning to feel the sadness of my dearest 9 other buddies splitting up into different schools.
Orientation: I love Igor-Iyrocus, the first few people I really got to know in VJ, all the fun we had together, with our really friendly and lovely OGLs.
O level results: A real goodbye to IJ and live the reality that 10 of us cannot be together anymore.
Start of JAE: New school, new class, new CCA, new friends. A tad bit of trouble coping with studies, but I was too playful to care. Ponned lectures and tutorials, having the time of my life with my newfound friends. Parkway and Siglap became the 'IN-Thing', no more HDB Hub.
Orientation 2: Had to chance to be OGL, but it was full of crap.
Soccer camp: Double scam JTS, gauntlet.
Soccer season: Trained really really hard, everything was about soccer and getting to the finals.
Soccer finals: Wanxin's winning goal and rejoice, everything we worked for was worth it.
OBS: New people, new experience, rejuvenating.
Mid years: Tried to cram everything in 2 weeks, flunked.
Soccer: Secret Saturdays hush hush.
Promos: Alternate between Esplanade and Starbucks. Still flunked.
PW: A period of SHIT, but I've learnt a lot.
Soccer: Learning to step up, without the seniors around to guide us.
Hong Kong Trip: More friendlies against really good opponents, dim sum & Xiao Long Bao!
Team Night: What more can I say? It was awesome.
Today: We're gonna rock the house down at Gling's, with VJSG alumni.

I'm gonna embrace 2009, make it good. I thought it might be better to jot down my resolutions here, to remind myself of it, even if its silly, at least it might last for a week. Nat Ng was telling me its important to have resolutions, I'll listen to her! ( I'm missing Natalie Ng, where are you and where's your email? )

#1 Have a better balance between soccer and family. My mummy will get lonely.
#2 Walk faster, try to exterminate the 'inability-to-walk-fast-after-trng' thought.
#3 Stop ponning lectures, do my tutorials, score for every tests.
#4 Train my hardest to achieve my personal aim.
#5 Stop being late for class, especially for Mr Lee's Econs.

5 is enough for now. Anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PINPIN THE NUT!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-12-30T14:53:00.008+08:00

TEAM NIGHT 2008!
What a blast! All the preparations, rehearsals, late nights up doing the videos-WAS ALL WORTH IT!

I was feeling quite apprehensive initially, worried about how the seniors would react, perhaps they won't like it, or perhaps they will think the skit is lame even though we portrayed it to be funny. Turned out, the smiles and laughter from them was priceless I'd say! While clicking the video slideshow to coordinate with the skit, instead of watching the video for the millionth time, I was watching their expressions instead and boy it was hilarious!

Skit went well, there were glitches here and there but these vjsg best actresses covered up for each other. Videos could work (whew). Coach's NOBODY dance with us WONDER GIRLS was ultra funny, I'm glad it worked out too. The dance was super gay, but Coach was a total sport! And he broke the treasure chest! Food looks great, though all we could steal was bits and pieces here and there. I had no idea that there was no dinner for us, all the lil starving ones. Coach, Karen, Nat and Xin's performance was a hit too! Their story was really funny, and Nat is the bomb when it comes to singing!! Prize and speeches, 'really heartwarming', haha. Congratulations to those who won, I think you guys really deserved it! It felt kinda like a Star Awards when they made their Thank You Speeches and "I really don't know what to say" XD! Senior's video, our 'sad video', Queen of my heart, camwhoring, cleaning up, prata and home.

Read all the letters from the seniors. I was really really really touched. I love these 9 seniors a lot a lot and I'd miss them greatly. I am missing them already. Yesterday really felt like a farewell, especially with those letters. Some of them really touched my heart and it made me cry :') By the time the night is over, I felt so overwhelmed, so tired, so zombiefied. It was a FANTASTIC NIGHT.

VJSG 07/08/09/Coaches

To all the seniors out there who told me in their letters that they still read my blog (XD!), Thank you for being such GREAT SENIORS and the night of pleasure totally goes out to you all! You will definitely be MISSED so do come back and visit often! Love you all loads!! <3

2008-12-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas was so not Christmassy this year, but I still enjoyed it. It was something out of the ordinary from the past few years. Simple but I Like It! (:

Christmas Eve, dinner with Mummy and Daddy and Me! The brother was MIA! @ Botak Jones near our house, the food was great, and I realised how much I missed dining properly with my parents, missed all those times we played around, joked like a joker and just enjoy family company. I've been neglecting them for dinners, thanks to late nights out hah!

Christmas Day itself was good too! A little slow going, but faster and faster towards the end.

Woke up for a nice breakfast as a family.
Baked a chocolate walnut cake w/ christmas deco with mummy.
Met Bing downstairs to exchange gifts.
Big family gathering at Saraca.
Turkey, Ham, Cranberry sauce, Macaroons, Cake, Presents.
Texas Hodem poker game-my very own financial backers! Life's a bitch, cousin XD!
Yilin chauffered us to buy Otah, then to Eight Junction Wheee. (Her driving's pretty neat!)
Subway with the cousins.
Twilight------SUCKS!
Night trip to Serangoon Gardens.
Cafe Cartel-Supreme platter, ribs, coffee, cake, pasta, whata feast!
Home Sweet Home and a good sleep?
NOT!
Chionged the videos for team night till 2am.
I almost died today. I was so tired, I went so high.
BOOOOM BAAAAA DAAAAAA!!!!
Good Night.
I'm a dead duck tmr if I don't catch some winks soon.

2008-12-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

And so once again my routine life is back, but it seems to be a little sparkier, little happier. Maybe its the Christmas season. I initially planned to skip Christmas this year, considering the fact that its only 3 days away and I have nothing on my hands yet, not a single Xmas shopping trip, not a card sent, the usual tree in my house is not even up yet! Hence my whole family decides to skip Christmas! But no I'm not spared! Friends and cousins are still exchanging gifts, so I'll see what I can conjure up spontaneously!

My ankle betrayed me again today. That traitor. Despite taping and guarding it, it still managed a piak and I was left helpless for the rest of training, besides planks and more planks. Sock and I did a record of 300 crunches for training today, something that doesn't involve our legs XD

Loads of teamnight preps now, trying to squeeze in time for 'Lead, Chlorine and Ammonia' (Miss CYB introduced that silly song to me, as well as the 'Whore' song whom She-Shall-Not-Be-Named) and now those songs are stuck in my head, with the image of her almost drenching the woman infront with water !! Recognition I strive, Smiles I get, Happy Meal! That was so random, but I'm a happy girl today!

I think the soccer juniors are a funny bunch! Really nice and cool, whats with like termite, monkey, partygalgal just like her senior gen, the-one-who-flirts-with-laoda, umbrella, soup so manyy!!! Looking forward to getting to know them EVEN BETTER!! Termite got a taste of my pickpocketing already, whoops!

Just hear those sleigh bells jingling, ring-ting-tingling too...
Come on its a lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you!

2008-12-13T14:51:00.004+08:00

-Driftwood & Bummers-
Watashi ga suki desu.

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Watashi ha yowai desu.
Wakatteru yo.
Motto tsuyoku ni naritai.
Demo sa..

Work it, make it, do it, makes us
Harder, better, faster, stronger

Yes I gotta be.

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance

I wanna just keep running on and on and on and on and on...

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Random post with random songs
Random random rattle rattle jibber jabber
These songs are not so random after all
They expresses what I'm feeling
What I've been feeling these few days
Today feels good
In a different way
Tokidoki, hitori de ii na.

Band concert was good yesterday. Relaxing, funny, I love the skit and the ending song.
I found out 2 more things about my friends.
Money can dance really well. And she can bitch.
Za can sing really well too. And she looks like those roadside busker when she stands and play her SEXYphone, moving her hips with the beat.
I love those two lil' musicians, that's why I never fail to go support them
Even if it kills me the next day
But what doesn't kill me,
Only makes me STRONGER.

Straitjacket Feeling; Stronger; Best I Ever Had; Somewhere Only We Know; Angels Or Devils; Check Yes Juliet; Love Hurts

2008-12-09T10:13:00.003+08:00

Life's kinda sucking these days. Besides the little happy events like Midnight movies and Weddings, fatigue has been ruling and its running me down. I don't know why, but I can't seem to force out a genuine smile, and I think its because of you. Sad-Unhappy, which is worse? Or to make the matter not any better, what's the difference/

Saturday.
Trng-Long run. I ran my guts out, or should I say, I ran my ankles out on that 4.8km route. Was stuck on the stoopid bike that doesn't displace for the rest of training ):
Celebrated Sher's and MinMin's birthday with a forbidden-to-eat-there-cake and nymph-not-infested-ban-mien.
Trudged home for a short nap before heading for family gathering.
Celebrated Yiyi's birthday with a bitter~~sweet~~ cake baked by mummy.
Headed out to town to meet Bing and Gen.
Fort Canning for Ben&Jerry's Chunk Fest, gigs and icecream and QUEUES ):
The Cathay for Ben&Jerry's live music and Snapple.
Midnight Movie-Quarantine. Screams, nachos, crazy biting people.
Late night walk down town to Funan IT Mall, running away from rabies.
Changed at Swissotel grand toilet.
Cabbed back to meet the socceroos.
And that became Sunday.

Sunday.
Standard Chartered Marathon-Worked as clappers ):
Barely made it home for naps before tuition again.
Painted nails for the bigger event the next day and fell asleep INSTANTLY.

Monday.
Happy Hari Raya Haji to all those out there. Thanks Tano, for remembering XD! Ass.
Congratulations to JaneJieJie and AndyKorKor. Happy Wedding!
Gathered bright and early at her house, it felt like CNY.
All dressed up, make up, hairdo, pretty dresses and killer heels with half broken ankles and knees.
Loads of Pictures (which I am lazy to upload now, find them on facebook)
Down to the Church of the Holy Cross for the 'I do' part.
Down to Asian Civilisation Museum for lunch reception.
Headed home for a quicknap. I'm seizing all chances for naps.
Down to Conrad International for buffet dinner.

I'm tired.

2008-12-04T10:34:00.004+08:00

Peeektures up from HongKong Trip-VJSG 0809 Rock On!

Rawr who's the scary one behind

Look at the change of face!!

Proud of my own LINE's Cafe -beams-
PAU room = LAODA room

CAMELA!

More pictures, check out facebook, thousands of HongKong pictures there (:

Losing faith?
Or lost.
:/

2008-12-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

I'm back from the Land of Polluted Air and Cantonese : Hong Kong!!! (:
It was a pretty fun trip overall, with the Soccer Team and Tennis Girls, minus off the dry skin and falling ill part :/

TaiTong Chalet was rather interesting, bunked 5 in a room for us, defenders are defensive! Haha, prob some inside joke. Laoda's striptease, TKGS's 'person nearest to the lights turn off the lights', Bing's catastrophe that led to Tano and I almost having to bathe her, brushing Bing's teeth, feeding her XD

2 friendlies against National Team and HongKong Uni. National Team was by far the toughest team I've fought against, they own in terms of strength, speed, height and skill, and that is basically the basis of soccer, so hmmm. HongKongU was a little different, played 7-aside. I got to try playing as Striker!! I kinda enjoyed it, though I was pretty blur about the runs.

Victoria Peak's star was Betterknee, the birthday girl. Now who gets to celebrate their birthday on a peak man! Lucky girl! Ladies Street, Times Square, Lines Cafe (XD) oooh so many!

Hotel Ibis, Room 1208 was the killer! The Injured & The Sick, taking care of each other! We good! Massage the sore elbow, sponge the feverish head haha what a joke. Our failed attempts to catch the 2am sunrise XP

Hong Kong, I guess it was a pretty good trip afterall (: My views of ppl have changed, some for the better whom I even ate a meal with WOOOOO and shook hand WOOOOOO. Some faces are :/ or maybe :| whichever suits best. Thank you Wanxin Thank you Gling, for your generous donation of Old Wife's Biscuit, you guys Rock On!!

Catastrophe: I sprained my ankle (again) today. I thought it was just a normal twist, so I tried to walk it off. But it became sooo bad, despite taping and ankle guarding, I'm with a limp now. My failed attempts to hide it from my mom SIGH.

-Pictures shall be up in the next post tmr (: -

2008-11-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

Krispy Kremes and Troubles don't go well together. Krispy Kremes cure the Troubles, that is in a temporary sense only. Trouble only finds its way back after the Krispy Kremes are covered. Krispy Kremes make Trouble go away, but Trouble comes back once Krispy Kremes disappear. If I keep eating Krispy Kremes, all Troubles will run, but new Trouble called Fats will be introduced and I don't want that. So to prevent Fats from coming, I cannot eat Krispy Kremes. That would mean Trouble will be bugging me. Worrisome little bugger. Troubles over what? Over That & That. Bottom line is, Krispy Kremes keep me sane, but I fret that Krispy Kremes' running out soon. Oh boo. After tasting Krispy Kremes, I will never touch Donut Factory or Munchy Donuts or whatnot again, unless I suffer from hardcore donuts craving, then I'll probably give in to temptations. As I always do XD This is a really stooooopid post about Krispy Kremes and Troubles. I'm troubled indeed, but I don't wanna spill. I'm hungry indeed, and I've got Krispy Kremes. In a nutshell, I love Krispy Kremes, they are ze bestest cure at the moment -beams-

Y.O.U. A.R.E. A.N.A.L

2008-11-20T12:24:00.004+08:00

Family chalet @ The Chevrons, credits to Korkor's NS men discount rate. Although the place was rather small, nevertheless it was still fun with the cousins. Started off the Monday at Astons with the usual crowd followed by Madagascar 2. It was pretty funny as usual with the 'I like to move it move it'. Headed down to Jurong East(?!?!) for BBQ, dip in the pool, bball & volleyball, not to forget Mahjong, cards and a camp on the floor. Getting the 2 babies to sleep was a tough task. Eventually I resorted to the old trick, music. BUT no I do not sing people to sleep. Modern technology allowed me to use my poddy on the hyperactive baby, seranading her to sleep with Death Cab for Cutie. Day 2 was moremore fun&sweat! Tunabread w/ maggi mee, babysitting w/ splashes, basketball, more dips in the pool, powder delight in the ladies, bowling, arcade, more balls and BBQ. The haunting prawns and roasting marshmallows (: Oh the happiness clumped up with smoke -I'm grinning-

Sleepover affair with the Serangoon Bud 243, almost turned nocturnal again. Thank the skies for such a thing called Poddy once more. Trng was pretty fun too yesterday. Interval time between 2 trngs was spent at 11 Siglap View-the monstrous gargantuan humongous gigantic MANSION!! Oh yes Gling's was awesome! More dips in the pool, exhausted our fuels out totally with monkey and a uber heavy waterloaded soccerball. Caught few winks on her highest floor, literally the floor, which was still pretty comfy. Afternoon trng became Win Lose or Draw and Polar Bear, since when do we get such fun? The traditional birthday dunking + Dunk-The-Gullible-Sec4s-When-They-Are-Unaware.

Fun with peeektures now!

Babysitting time for the 2 cuties

Start of our Powder Delight!

Peeektures from that day of hunting for ankle guards (:

Spazz Tano as usual XD

Not to forget,
HAPPY KICKING BIRTHDAY TO THESE LOVELY PEOPLE:
Bob 'Ulrica' Liang- yesterday my senior turned 18! (:
King of Socks- today the King turns 17! (:

2008-11-16T09:43:00.002+08:00

I was seriously anal the past few days.
Anal's gone now because...
Aline celebrates her FIRST GOAL!!! :DDD
Played left back for the first time, couldn't be a better experience.
That goal brought back lost confidence.
Against RJC 6-0.
Previous match against Australian's Sports College 1-1
Looking forward to the next few friendlies we'll be having against the seniors and the Hongkees.

Shhhh-Sheeee was pretty fun, with people I got to know better now.
Breakfast affair with the Serangoonians/Hougangians was brilliant as well, good bonding for the Non-Easterners.

I realised that it takes patience and tolerance to make peace.
So...PEACEOUT to You & You especially.

HongKong's COMING SOON (:
JaneJiejie's wedding's COMING SOON (:
Many birthdays are COMING SOON (:
Christmas's COMING SOON (:
Team Night's COMING SOON (:
R-Paper's COMING SOON ):
J2's COMING SOON ):

2008-11-14T20:46:00.004+08:00

Standing at that crossroad
I've never felt so lost all my life.
I have no direction,
no where to feel belong.
Trudging home was a war.
A war of fighting back those tears.
Showering; crying
What difference does it make
Tears blend well with water
There is no difference after
Or so I feel..

Actions and words
Aren't they supposed to be a pair?
Jack of all trades
Master of NONE.
Yes say hi to that master in me

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but its goes to waste
Could it be worse (could it?? I'm sure)

Fix You or Screw You
I need serious fixing
My emotions are screwing my life up
Get a grip
Continue my good cry before I
SNAP OUT OF IT
I am driven by obligations
Could you still call that drive?

Anal

2008-11-09T13:58:00.002+08:00

I promised of a little toning down, I guess it shall only start today. Particles were roaming out wild last week, despite those hectics pouring down. Some stuffs were plain bad, but it's not my part to say. I can only do so much to bear with it, keep showing that smile. Facade or not, it's not my place. I only wish it would stop, or get better. Perhaps I'm the problem here. Discard the skeptics and get in there.

Happiness boosters (:
Class Outing-High School Musical 3. Though the pathetic turnout, it was still pretty fun. I can't believe the guys said they were bringing their 'kid sisters' out for the movie. Embarrassment to be caught watching HSM3? Heehee. It was more of a comedy XD

Class BBQ at Frances. Finally, I'm going there not for PW, but something fun instead. Lotsa food and oh gorgeous the lambchop, squid, salmon, beefsteak..stuffs I don't usually see at BBQs heh! Mr Leee brought icecream, but it kinda melted to like squishy milk :/ Back at home just seconds before the clock ticked twelve.

Survived double trng on Wednesday, despite being totally shagged due to the lack of Zzzzs.

Mahjong session with the AuntieTix and socceroos was fun at Sher's.

Sending the ODAC-ers off at the airport, hugs and goodbyes. Have fun with the Indies!!

Downdowndown to Juicy's to meet the fabulous (whoelse?) girls! I miss hanging out with them like crazeee and last night was pure fun! Even if I was dead tired, I'll always have energy for them! I promise pictures up after I steal them from somewhere else. It was an awesome chilling night.

ZzOmggg the horrible thingaling is my teeth hurts like CRAAPPP!! Darn the dentist, she made me put double bands OUCHARGH. I can't wait for the day my braces will be off and byebye metalmouth (:

2008-11-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

1. I shall hereby name this week : TABOO :D
2. I love secrecy, but its hard.
3. Discrete is the word, that's totally the fun part !
4. 'Shucks' is the new cool word, understand Bing?
5. I love Kebab, not Kebab-gan.
6. One last portion of PW has fallen into my hands once again.
7. 1 hour !?!?!?!
8. Happy Halloween to all on the 31st October 2008
9. Hello there, angel from my nightmare
10. I'll try hard. No more vibes. No more pokes. Just quiet smiles.

Gone are the wild days. Okay maybe not, I'm looking forward to Class BBQ and HSM3 with the crazies who are going to dance along with the music!

OP was a state of nervousness and whoa I haven't seen so many butterflies in ages! They all just fluttered to my stomach and stayed there for quite long, annoying butters! OP overall was good, managed to not flounder and s-s-sttuu-ttterrr, while trying my hardest to keep that facade of forced smiles despite those fears. Ohkayyy actually it wasn't that bad. FUNnest part was ripping the cue cards into shreds right after we were done, oh the euphoria !

Class lunch finally, more than half the class turned up and we had a really good time ! Jack's Place was filled with liveliness and joy radiating from us ! XD That brilliant lunch resulted in stomachache for trng later on though.

Trng has been pretty interesting this week, with the Thai Coach and Coach Matt coming down, giving new pointers. They all love our attitude of enthusiasm to "carry the goal posts" as the Thai Coach said. I noticed they didn't really commend our skills or whatnot. Not that we are really that skilful, especially from our poor performances the past few trngs.

Its eating into my life, every single minute. We're not let off on a SundayFunday either. Hello long road ahead, I'll see you tomorrow, please be soft on me, I beg for leniency.

2008-10-26T13:18:00.004+08:00

Politics kill, lets not talk about them.
OP? What on Mother Earth is that?
Past week has been wholly awesome with companies like these guys.

-posing for the preoccupied look-

-emo nemo-

-kidnapped?-

-or just really cold?-

Bottom line: I LOVE CHILLING. ABSOLUTELY.LOVE.IT.

2008-10-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

Things have been going in a big whirl, it revolves Pee-Double-EW and soccer. Haven't got the time to factor in studies + R-paper yet. Its a whirl and a whirl and a whirl. I'm really glad for the friends who stood by, watching, lending a hand, just being there. Pee-Double-EW is seriously EW, with some assholes who ruined by reputation by making me swear 'cause he is super UGH. Soccer training's fun, but its exhausting at times, I hardly have much energy left when I get home ): RANTS: We spent freaking SEVENTY bucks on our WR, when many other groups got it for ELEVEN bucks or FOC!! Full of Crap man! We were cheated, plus we were cheated at such an unearthly hour close to midnight! :/

Did something pretty fun today. We sent Dick off at the airport early morning, she's like some pro player, gon Korea to play her tennis XD Somehow sending someone off and knowing someone is going but exclude the sending part, the feeling is really different. Sending TheDick off today, just hours later I feel like I miss her a lot already. ): Come back quick Dick! (: All the Best and play your heart out !! YaKun's after that, followed by a short nap/chat at viewing gallery, then Popeyes and back to school!

I love CHILLING out with my buddy. Y'know who you are ! Blink once if you know, blink twice if you don't. Are you blinking are you blinking??? HAHAHA!

BIG pondering questiong for me: To drop or not to drop THECHEM to H1?
Since I've never really done well;
Haven't pass a single chem this year yet;
My peers seem to be coping well with Chem;
Ms Long Skirt hinted big time for me to drop;
Mr CT also said its better to drop-he gave us an appeal form to retain 4H2s, I need to freaking appeal to keep my subjects OHDEAR!

2008-10-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

This whole week feels like the start of the year once again, travel back in time to PAE period. Reason being: the wonderful P word comes to easily when it comes to lectures once more, to the extent of tutorials too XD I love this kind of world. Back to reality AlineChan, apparently things are not going as well as I would like it to be. Promos results are out and haunting my life away each minute. Monday was absolutely vile because I received not one, not two, but five blows at one go. To make things 'better', Miss-Long-Skirt-W*** indirectly told me today to drop Chem SHEESH I don't wanna I don't wanna. Maybe I shall consider it though, I can never seem to be able to do Chem anyway. Whats the point. There is no point to many things in life it seems.

EmoNemo WhinyWhiny aside. Friends are what keep me going. THE lovelies came to visit today, TADA JessicaChan & CharmaineChew + met-once-friend whom I only know as HuaHua ! They came with cookies that tasted so awesome! We helped them surprise their birthday friend, we were labelled as TYPICAL IJ GIRLS! Is that a good thing? Being typical IJ girls, welllll OF COURSE IT IS!!!! Only fools like 'a teacher who shall not be named' condemns us, oh what the heck, he's not in my line of happy vision now (: I love your cookies veryvery much, but I love y'all muchmuch moreeeee!!!

Lonely bus ride home today because the bus-bud had to rush off. So she was thus replaced with the poddy, Tuesdays with Morrie and a random stranger old man who nicely accompanied me all the way to my stop ! XD

I discovered that my classmates and I are intellectual beings. Truly. We spent almost 2 hours in Borders today, reading about a compilation of Murders, playing who-finds-the-book-first-WINS, browsing and wowing at places of interest around the world, laughing at pink covered chick lits slapped with a martini and trashy titles. We found a book that has a title : THIS IS NOT CHICK LIT !!! What on earth man, I bet it was a book on SELF DENIAL. I bought a new book, I'm was left broke, paid nyny 25Cents for my drink, and my wallet was then drained. (:

DeniseChua came down today, it was sooooo nice seeing the familiar blue pinafore, the HIJ pe shirt around school again, OH MY I miss it. I'm feeling so jaded and exhausted these days, nothing much can keep me awake, I miss my bed now.

Spouts of randomness again, I wanna see a rainbow now, I wanna die in the Niagara Falls, I wanna meet up with my friends soon, I wanna see the AURORA, its some natural light displays in the sky, they look really pretty!

2008-10-05T17:17:00.004+08:00

The week has been relaxing and hectic at the same time. Relaxing without having lessons AT ALL! Zilch! (: Hectic back again with the start of training, Pee-Double-EW and Open House.

Sportsmen night on Thursday was not as exciting, but then again, I didn't expect much. It was just dinner for all the sportsmen of VJC plus the teachers and coaches, lucky draws, speeches and tonnes of gossiping and jokes about neighneighs and pastures XD I sprained my ankle on that fateful night bleahhhhhh

Open house on Saturday. A pity so many IJ juniors couldn't come 'cause of those mock exam tests. Both maths on the same day !?!? Poorthings. Glad I still saw some of them, and some even signed up for soccer (: Ushering and soccerbooth tending/walkabout was pretty interesting, but really tiring and hot. The kicking part was always fun definitely. VJ's open house is always so engaging, with the F1 simulators, Zipline, Rockclimbing, Kicking and so many performances with our own liveband. Our pretty banner designed by Ame the ArtyFarty one :

No parents at home this weekend, HAVOC ! XP Granny cooked a uber nice dinner for us today, stingray plus bak ku teh she's zeee best!!

Spontaneous Relaxing Sunday with Tano and Bing, plus a bout of Jeaness (: Swim in the morning, the 3 of us spent 2 hours in the pool for only 2 laps XD I learnt a backflip in the water. Baking with Bing the professional baker, was really enjoyable, thanks for accompanying me once again Wheee! The cookies turned out pretty good cookie monster!! Parents are gon be back tmr, its back to the routine life once more, schooltrainingschooltrainingschooltraining...

2008-09-29T10:11:00.014+08:00

Promos: MUMMY, ITS OVERRRR!!!!

1 week of hardcore mugathon plus carving the answers on the scripts, less of hair-pulling this time round, maybe because my hair is all clipped up. Explored all over Singapore for good places to study, I conclude that people everywhere do not want students to study-they chase us out all the time.

Post exams celebrations were a blast!! 3 days of havoc and its time to settle down now. Lunch with a mix at cartel was really hilarious, especially with the cartoon ET trying to flag down all the cabs with her OI and EH UNCLE. Watched Mamma Mia, it was so trashy, but yet so darn funny. A bunch of oldies fooling around, sudden random spouts of abba songs in a so normal conversation. It was a really good de-stress movie, laughed all the shit out! Hung around doing my favourite thing-bum around all night till it was dark.

Saturday was the brilliant one. "It was a spontaneous adventure". Soccer with the favourites in the early morning all the way east. Followed by big carl's jr. and a monorail to Palawan!! Volleyball, diving, soccer, cheerleading, sandbath, seaweed 'love thy nature' and new species!!! Barcardi, cuts, shades and camwhores! These made up the adventure part. Spontaneous was sleeping over at Tano's, so last minute, we didn't even go home to take our stuffs. The Freedom Writers and Music and Lyrics. Sleepover was a really high event, with lots of pillow taupoking and giggling and even chokeslamming. How alarming!!!

Swim event with my all time favourite swimming bud, Ness the Buta. Hung out at my place for a while after that, just like the old times heehee!! Lots of reminiscing and catching up to do. What a spectacular weekend with such awesome company. No regrets going through that week of horror, even more scary than Ju-on, although I didn't even watch Ju-on. XD

Back to the same old lifestyle now. Trng resumed yesterday, yay hellooo socceroos! The start of trng was fun, with games in the hall. Although I was freaking stress 'cause the bus ain't moving and I was gonna be late. Sheesh I was chanting all the way from paya lebar "faster faster faster", it didn't work :/

2008-09-14T23:06:00.003+08:00

Champagne flavoured and Chocolate Whisky flavoured MOONCAKES!
Awesome! I love the creator.
I don't see the moon tonight; come out big round thing in the sky!

I wanna rule the world.
Then I can demolish exams.
Let everyone PROMOTE! (:

My classmates are funny! We were in a serious discussion the other day.
"I want to promote"
"Me too. We can't fail GP then"
"If I cannot promote, then I'll have to JTS you again next year!"
"I'll be your junior next year!"
"NO we must all promote together. I don't want to JTS you!"

Hahahaha, it went along something like that. So much for a serious discussion.
Studying is making everyone go SJB !!!
If I quote "SOMEONE", studying is DMFS !!!
Hmmm Dear Mother... XD (inside joke, wink twice and cross your eye if you get it friend)

Oh no i'm starting to ramble, signs of tiredness. Tomorrow's the last day of school, gon make full use of it! Climb some walls and dunk some people, catch some koi and flip some tables, ALLLright I'm ready for school. Come.Get.Me

2008-09-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

I have been studying.
Yes I have.
I'm not trying to convince myself.
I really did.

mmhmm

Went running with Bing today.
Our brilliant story:
1. Ran to Bishan (from Serangoon, take note!!)
2. Cooled down by walking a big circle to the interchange
3. Felt too lazy to run back
4. Started worrying
5. Decided to walk through J8, hoping we'll meet someone
6. Saw Audrey Kang, our lifesaver!!
7. Borrowed $1.10
8. Ran for the bus
9. Caught a bus home
10. Awesome ending, isn't it? XD

Subway three days in a row! Thats awesome!

Met up with the pretties again today for lunch and a visit to Ms Teo's cosy house down Orchard! We didn't know which was her unit, so we just kept calling out her name. Whoops she was embarrassed, she popped out and hurried us in. XD Watched Pride and Prejudice, ate 'healthy' and 'unhealthy' snacks, topped off with KFC! Although half the time we didn't understand the movie because we'll get distracted. Ms Teo has a NARNIA cupboard, which will probably lands us in the East or West if we get in :P Her walk-in-wardrobe-toilet just fascinates us. And she lives so near Mr Lee (Hsein Long, not Keng Hoe the 'lovable lee').

I've gotten my GREEN TEA FRAPPE today, happy me (:

Its a wet night again, I'll probably hit the beds early yayee!

2008-08-31T09:41:00.002+08:00

YAY SCHOOL'S OUT!!

I fear a deja vu of June Hols, thinking I had all the time in the world, party first-study later. XP

Friday was a roller coaster of emotions day, it was like WHOA! I'm still glad for it.
VJC's celebration was not exactly IJ's type, nevertheless it was still pretty fun! The breakfast thing, camwhoring with a whole new bunch of camwhores, BoonYew and his rockers, all the hilarious videos. I just love VJ's videos, they make me laugh!!

Back to IJIJIJIJIJIJ to see the pretties!!! Almost the whole of 4/2'07 went back. Had some really good catching up, even with the teachers. OOOh I miss WENGWENG and JO TEO and all the others! I got corrected twice for saying LAO SHI JIE KUAI LE! Oh sheesh, at least I still can speak chinese XD

Lunch at Pastamania, followed by UDDERS. The graphics on the walls in UDDERS was so porno, it was funny!
Evil and I joined Joocebomb and her 1T35 for their class outing at ECP, cycling and feeling salty, bridging at Burger King, laughing along with her oh-so-funny classmates. That took away the ):thoughts:( temporarily (: BBBBUUTTT I had to face the thunder faces again back home, for another bout of 'time management+family+balancing+late nights' uhoh.

Bumming around the whole of yesterday, left me feeling nothing but guilty. I'm really getting into the bumming thing, in fact I think I'm getting good at it! Bum Bum Bum my morning out, Bum my afternoon away in an Indian shop sipping Teh Tarik, Bum my night away with the cousins on the floor, mumbling incoherent stuffs. WHAT A BUMMER!

Tears of the Sun, that show really made some incredibly powerful statements. It was the bomb man! Rather moving, too bad it was quite late and I was tired from bumming my day away, I didn't have the mood to cry. XD

2008-08-26T22:54:00.003+08:00

Regret, don't we all?
I wish I could undo it
I'm sorry

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do

School is getting a little too much again.
I need a getaway, holidays are coming (:

You remember the struggles and pain you had
When all the good had turned to bad
When behind the scenes you crumbled prayed
For it all to simply just go away...
But when the pressure builds and tears you apart
How are you able to depart
How are you able to still carry a smile
When everything inside is in a pile
-Shawn Johnson

2008-08-24T14:04:00.002+08:00

I'm back after a week of hiatus, I curbed my urge to go online the whole week, and that I'm proud of myself. Partly because I'm too caught up with crap to even turn on the computer too. >< So I see the goodness and badness of not having a tagboard already. People have been telling me that I sound really like a nemo in my posts. Dear friends, thats not true. At least I'm trying not to be, really! Positive outlook, yes!

The week passed really quickly, in a flash it was Saturday once again. Our last SS! SM was super cool in the gran's house. SW was even more fun at the court. SS finished it on a rather good note. A rainy day the whole of yesterday, have been caught in it severals. ): Bing and I decided not to make our grand entrance of more than 1 hour lateness into Mr Yong's, and he was pretty nice about it with an Ok Don't Worry! (: Bummed our afternoon away with Tau Huay and the rain.

Had a quicknap before catching up with Grandma, The maid and The dog! Super awesome time with amazing company! Watching the brilliance light up the sky! Korea's was much better than France yesterday, but I still prefer France's finale, it ended off with a really big BANG! I think I was drunk on fireworks, went really off balanced and started singing/spouting/doing nonsense on the road with the granny, maid and dog. XD Walked a lot from Esplanade to The Cathay, before hopping into a cab for Prata at Casurina. This reminds me, trackers dear we have to visit that haunt again sometime soon! JieJie droved us back home, with her fantastic driving skills! XP Thanks beautifuls for the awesomeness last night, although I had to put up with his black horrendous look when I got home that late, or should I say early. XD

I like being a bummer, RockOn bummers!!! :D

2008-08-17T13:25:00.002+08:00

A blog is a scary thing. You never know who's reading it. But posting online means free reading. So that shall not deter me from saying what I want, keeping track of my own random thoughts. Sometimes a sudden message from sometime you don't really expect it to come from, can just perk you and it did to me. It kinda made me day and motivated me from that current unmotivated-pissedoff-dreary state of mind at that moment. Thank you dear senior! I'm sure you know who you are, if you're still blog stalking! XD

A certain someone who's calling starts with M and stays under the same roof as me, commented that I'm less happy these days. ): Slap me silly and I still think it does hold some truth. This is -shakes head- not good. I want to be like that kid in the park, happy and carefree. And that I shall be.

SS yesterday was really a big first S of that 2 letters. It was quite fun in a way. Once again, it dragged on till rather late, which got me a bit anxious. Cabbed down with the tuition bud to Kovan, feeding on plain banana bread and GreenTea, how thrifty. Survived half my Saturday and I was glad. Had a relaxing time after that, learning the art of Enjoying Life.

At the usual family gathering, the cousins were so amused at my reaction to tickles, especially anywhere near my neck. I was attacked A HELL LOT; Their entertainment is at the expense of me! XD Well all for the good and joy of mankind, haha. I get bullied by people younger than me. Almost all the time. Bullied in the joking sense, not the school bully kind. But it still shows that people younger finds me bulliable, thats pretty sad. XD Maybe I'm too soft.

I'm off the hook for my Chem E ASS! Yes Yes OH Yes! (: Even though I did it with cheats collated from many, but cheating's the way of the world, isn't it? Without cheats, there won't be truths.

2008-08-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

I've learnt one more thing about myself.
I need about 24 hours to cultivate a good mood, in preparation for a good training.
Its long yes, but at least it works.
Sleeping early, constantly talking to myself in my head, if all these for a good day, I'll gladly do it again.

I'm past my emo nemo stage. I have no idea why I was so down the past few days. Guess things are starting to pick up now, or maybe its all in the mind. Anyway, I think I was ~~possessed~~ the past few days man, getting all tired drifty moody grumpy. Sorry to those who were affected.

JieMin indirectly called me short!!! Hahaha, I know I am! But! We were doing the bumping people off thing, and she told me that when I bumped her, her lower arm hurts, maybe because of the height difference. Fineeee! Hahaha! JieMin is getting funnier by the day I swear.

Thursday tmr, dental day! Wheee, goodbye hard good food! See you soon, porridge! ):

2008-08-11T23:10:00.003+08:00

~~emo~~; ~~fatigue~~; ~~boredom~~; ~~I-don't-wanna-go-school-thought~~;
I shall eradicate these negative thingalings from my head.

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be,
That face is tearing holes in me again

-current earworm- :D

PW made me feel all so angsty, having to travel to China early in the morning (inside joke), determined to be late. It turned out better than expected, once again I was surprised. I guess, learning to tackle different people different problems are all part and parcel of life. ThaiPan for lunch was good, haven't had that in ages--which gave me an uncomfy stomach later on -shakes head- no good.

Had fun again today. In fact, I'm having so much fun these few days, I'm under heavy influence of the past and highly tempted to revert to the secret P word with a 'i-n-g'.

I'm really thinking a lot these days. At times it makes my head wanna burst, just blast music into my eardrums to make those thoughts go away. At times, I wonder if through all these, I'm learning more about myself. Random thoughts once again.
If this carries on, I'm gonna be a really extremely random person soon.
Thoughts are good; Its good to think. My brain is not underutilised .

Thanks for letting me view the new random things.

2008-08-09T23:37:00.004+08:00

I suck.
How could I miss Nat today?
The next time I'll see her is probably 4 years later,
and yet my stupid brain, too filled with
nonsensical thoughts can actually miss that out
I am so so so sorry FatNat,
I really meant to text you early this morning
I feel extremely guiltridden now, and will be for the next 4 years
I'm gonna miss you loads!!

Goodbye Nat, Bon Voyage, Take Care
Hope you're settling well down there (:

My head is so full of random thoughts
Mostly thoughts of the other half of my life unrelated to soccer and studies
Its killing my usual train of thoughts
I'm distracted
I'm drifty
I don't want to think about it, it just keeps popping in like a little bugger

I still don't know myself well enough
Or is it just an excuse of the growing up phase
I feel like a darn pessimistic bummer
Who wants to be like an ostrich
Hiding my head in a hole in the ground
For probably the next 10 years
Good bye World

2008-08-08T17:59:00.003+08:00

I was and I am sick! ): Didn't get to go for Feeling Fab. Double ):
But owells, look on the bright side, I did feel somehow fab. -Be optimistic- XD

Thursday pretty much passed without me knowing why or how again. School, training, tuition. A typical Singaporean kid's lifestyle which totally SUCKS! But I'm glad I had company for them. Tad of a ): at the end though, but its okay we'll have it one day yeahh! Heehee.

Connect Singapore today! It was so unplanned, unprepared, unfun, but I still managed to get through it. Then again, the company made it fun, and it was quite an experience. Was in Group 18, at St Nicks. It was nice to see the blue IJ pinafore once again, and having prayers for morning assembly. Just short of a mass with Father Michael and some performances. I was the road marshall with a nice Police Volunteer whose name I kinda don't really know. But she was really nice and interesting person to talk to. Marshalling along the whole long stretch was pretty tiring, in the end we camped in front of some girls who loved the "I've got peace like a river" game O.o But the whole event was kinda flop, for one, the president didn't come by in his jeep, two, I bet the whole Singapore didn't say the pledge together. OWELLS!

Connect ended really late, was really tired. Couldn't get to JieMin's house already. ): Another ): Really tired and drifty again today. -.-

I learnt to face up to my feelings
I learnt to express my feelings out, or maybe not?
I learnt that I need to learn to make decisions
I learnt its hard to keep a secret
I learnt that its also pretty fun to keep one
I'd like to learn more about myself

2008-08-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

Since tuition started, I've been feeling really good after each lesson, knowing that I had learnt something and done something productive that 2 hours, a huge make up for the BIG GAP = WASTE OF TIME Physics lecture/tutorial in school. Physics in school is really like a stoning or chatting session, how awfully useless. Shane and I even went for the extra lessons on Saturday, almost konked out several times though, but I pulled through! (: -Gives myself a pat-

Friendly match against National Team U-16 girls team today. I'm glad I got the chance to be a starting player. But I was pretty disappointed with my own performance. I didn't relax enough, was too tense as usual. Didn't meet the balls the first time, needed shoutings from the sides before I woke up and not let the balls bounce. I know my trapping is atrocious. I need to work on it. Well at least now I know my weaknesses, I just need the extra time to practise! I'm so motivated right now!! Good news is, we won them 4-3, although we all didn't play well at all. O.o

Feeling Fab tomorrow! Exciting! (: *winks*

But I'm really feeling like crap now. Throat Nose Stomach hurrtts and I'm wondering why. ): Hope this uneasy feeling goes away. Must be that super ultra spicy soup for dinner ugh!

2008-07-30T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm forcing myself to sleep in 20 minutes time! TEN-THIRTY is the max for me tonight. I will not let myself turn into a night owl. I've seen what it does to me. It makes me drift, it makes me lethargic mentally. I think mental fatigue is the worse kind of fatigue, it affects everything. And I don't want that to happen to me again!

PE today was pretty cool. Did so many things, ran with Frances, played tennis for the first time with Sock and Weiting, and basketball with the class! Sports make me alive, but ironically it is also through sports that made me so jaded most of the time. XD

Careers talk after school, the school was like a shopping centre man! With all the typical Singaporeans coming out of the hall with big bags of freebies, like some GREAT SINGAPORE SALE! SPH didn't interest me much, its such a writing job, my GP's aint fantastic. >< SPF interested me quite a fair bit, imagine me in the police uniform! SAF is cool too, I like the Naval Diver role, I think its pretty awesome, plus being the one in the artillary. I've long given up on my pilot ambition, considering that I'm under the height requirement and I need to go for tonnes of lasik before I can qualify. OH gee.

All I need is the heart. Just Heart. That will be my greatest talent.

2008-07-29T22:36:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired, I've been DRIFTING around school the whole day in my own little world. Feeling very distant from everything and everyone, yet physically I'm there to show my presence. I need a break off school (maybe I'll self-declare holiday one day). I'm getting sick and tired of the routine once more, its a vicious cycle I swear, only roping us tighter into the whirlpool of grades. Good grades or bad grades, we'll all grow up. Grow up or stay young, we'll all die eventually.

Okay shit why am I having such a pessimistic outlook on life, when I should be rejoicing about life!

-music changes the mood- current earworm: Can You Hear Me by Enrique Iglesias.
(This song always bring back memories of the night we stayed at Buddy's house for Euro Finals :D)

Some pretty awesome and wonderful news!
Interhouse Netball today: Phoenix--WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! A close call with Draco, drawing on the finals, winning by 1 point during extra time. Brilliant play everyone!!! Netball is cool, I miss those IJ interclasses netball times, plus the supersupersuper fun time of banner painting, where 3/2 and 4/2's banners always rock the house down with our coolshit silhouettes.

Met up with FatNat once more, and Caty. Was SUPPOSED to see Mr Loh too, but once AGAIN, I was a little too late ): Seriously have no fate with him, I'm always missing him by a bit! Rawrr. But nice him, treated us to Crystal Jade dinner! (: Immediately after, Nat treated us to Swensens Earthquake. How absolutely sinful, but owells a little indulgence. I'm so gonna run it off, I promise you Aline!!

Nat says that no one will ever take me seriously. ): Thats not something to be proud off. Imagine, whatever I say, people will think I'm kidding. And that is 'cause she says, I look like a KID!! Still??? Come on, I'm SEVENTEEN already! Its just the backpack, braces and short hair w/ hairband, I know!

2008-07-25T21:11:00.010+08:00

Had loads of fun dunking Bing today, her post-birthday celebration by the soccer girls! Mel baked a totally yummilicious cake, shes the baker man! Sab's house was pretty cool too, although we didn't go up, I love her condo! Ame and I pulled off our shirts and just jumped into the pool, while waiting for the others to bathe. It was super fun, a mini version of our CCK plan. XD

College day after that, we all ran into the condo in a huffpuff manner, smelly sticky sweaty, and trooped out looking so smart, with tie and all. College day was a total bore. The teacher didn't let up go out at all, he said "This is no longer the LT AVA, it is now the VICTORIAN PRISON!" And so we were all trapped like rats ><>IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SCHOOL SONG! Sheesh, my poddy was plugged too deep in, I couldn't hear anything XD

Met up with the trackers and FatNat and Weixin for dinner at NYNY. Kinda farewell plus birthday for FatNat, who's always so excited about food. In fact, she was so excited, she already planned a next dinner outing coming really soon! How cool and efficient is that! I'm still feeling the fullness from dinner, and we already have new plans !!

The banner behind says "FAREWELL NAT WE'LL MISS YOU"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BING!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TANO!

25.07.08
Half day today was really good. Another Relaxing Friday (: Amelia and I kidnapped Bing, for half the day, making lots of detours and encountering technical difficulties until we finally reached Island Creamery for her surprise. Blindfolds and hair styling were part of the beautiful plan. Met ClaraWara along the way of Bukit Timah, she was crazily running all the long way from CJ. Island Creamery was totally heaven, with the mudpie and lovely icecream flavours, plus did I mention, I love their photo printing machine, we kept printing photos, heh. Hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday bus-bud!

All our coolshit hairstyles with Gatsby!

Lovely favourite bus-bud turns 7!

Ame can draw!

2008-07-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

It's been a pretty long and boring time ever since. I've learnt that LIFE SUCKS & SHIT HAPPENS. But I just gotta deal with it in whatever way I can and flush them down the toilet bowl. Anyway, most problems start with myself, and like our team motto this year, SELF-MASTERY, if I can master myself, there won't be problems!

Trngs had its ups and downs. Today was more of my downside.
Okay basically today sucks and let me whine about why:
-I had the doubt of company of my friends during PE, but it was still damn fun hanging out with the rest, really! Just gone the weird sense of humour of theirs.
-I forgot to bring my towel to bathe, and had to buy a cheapo, non-absorbant one from the bookshop.
-I had to go for Chem Remedial.
-Trng seemed pretty bad for me today no matter how hard I tried. My ~~bleddy~~ left foot is 'non-existent' ):
-My newly bought towel was stolen. I had to use charity towel. XD
-My slippers broke. Again.

RAWR! Its a sign I think! A sign for whatever crap's coming my way.

Tmr's gonna be a new and exciting start! Ooh my debut.

Oh and there's something wrong with my blog, I just can't seem to fit a tagboard in without screwing everything. Can't put the comments part either. So I think this suits me fine for now, a quiet blog where people shall hold their words forever because there's no space to spam (: Yes anti-social-thats me. :D

2008-07-13T21:42:00.006+08:00

The most awesome day today, attributed to my dearest LOVELIES who made me smile a gazillion times wider than usual, laugh like a madman, make me feel all kiddy again, contributed to the lubber by stuffing me with cakes and icecream. Thank you a million everyone, for making me such a happy child these few days, especially today! (: I LOVE y'all to the end of the world!

Thank you dearest BINGBING aka SHANE & AMELIA, the crazy duo who plotted and schemed to kidnap me today! Thanks Shane for letting me meet MUTTON, I'm so gonna get that cutie to hop to my place one day! Thanks for the wonderful surprise, although the suspense almost killed me, for making me look so unglam, for the tonnes of coolshit icecream at ICE^3 (my debut) I'm so happy! Shane for being my bodyguard for the day, accompanying me around so I won't get lonely! :P

Thank you dearest NINE OTHER COOL BABES, for always being there, for all the happy and crazy and sad moments, for not scolding me today despite making your wait for so long, for the firehouse, lunch and company, walking and tasting, and for the treasured present-the poddy! I love all you beautiful people to bits, forever making me smile no matter what! Thanks buds!

Thank you dearest MUMMY, DADDY, KORKOR, for collaborating with my friends for the poddy, for the early morning cake and for practically everything, you guys are my life! (: (Although if y'all find your way here, I'll probably freak out! So y'all prolly won't see this! XD)

Thank you dearest VJSG & COACHES for the watermelon, juice, icecream cake, pizza, company and (okayokay), the fountain dunking! I thought that since my birthday falls on a Sunday this year, I'd probably be safe from the fountain, who knew! XD

Thank you dearest O8S62 for the cake, song and wishes, plus class lunch at Pizza despite our horrifying experience. (oh and I still went back for more horror the next day, >