Getting really really tired.
Falling into a deeep slumber.

Anyway! We won SRJC 12-0!
I'm super happy and glad for the whole game!

Happy belated birthday Huixin!
Happy belated birthday Zabuza!
Happy belated birthday Lump!

I love you all millions!

Ooh I'm gonna trim my hair again later.

Past 2 trainings were so not gentle, I had lots of hard knocks with bumpy bruises, sprained ankle, wobbly-feeling bones and tight muscles. But it feels tad good in a weird sense XD!

5 days since his passing.
4 days at the wake, has kinda taken its toll on me. I can see my panda eyes already, from the lack of sleep. One procession was the ultimate, it totally rendered me deaf for at least half an hour, the noise is nothing I've ever heard, man my ears are still ringing. Mandai brought back hateful thoughts, but I have to learn to let go. I know that he is in a better place now, free from suffering. The lotus picture that the ashes formed after burning those paper, assured me much more 'cause the adults say that it means he has become a Buddha. If it forms footprints, it means that the departed has reincarnated into either human or animals. So I guess Buddha is the best for him (:

It's back to school tomorrow. I'm faced with Physics SPA first thing, and I have no reference to study from :\

I heard from the girls that we won MI 10-0 today, brilliant la you girls! I'm so proud!
Anyway, thank you all, for your care and concern. I'm alright now, really. Love the people man!

I just had to blow it.
Just Had To Freaking Do So.

I am so annoyed at myself, so pissed with those guys, so scared of Monday to come and its future, so freaking afraid that what I think it is will come true.

Come On! Trouble always associates with me and that Napoleon, since Day 1 I stepped into school. This is not the first, but I definitely hope it will be the last. Just as I thought things might get better, and I just had to do something so foolish, so uncalled for, now we're all in freaking hot soup! Uggghhhhh I don't know what to freaking do anymore someone tell me slap me and tell me!

Afternoon out was refreshing, I didn't return. But once I stepped in, you had to vent all your frustrations on me. I have my own freaking ones thanks. Raawwrrr this is all shit shit shit shit shit and more SHIT! I don't want Monday to come but I have to face the damn music. I'm not running away from what I did. I just don't want whatever is to come, to be in that manner, give me any other shit, I can take, but just not that please. Coach talked to me on FB just now, it really gave me hope. I believe, I trust, I hope. Thank you Coach, I know you won't see this, but really, thank you.

Stupid rants - please ignore this post totally.

The world is a huge disappointment.

F R E A K I N G

U N F A I R.

I wish I could change it.
I wish I had kicked harder for training.
I wish I had something concrete to begin with.
I wish I had gone running after training.
I wish it was all a mistake.
I wish I had vented out everything with the ball and the net.
I wish it was different.

1 hour of searching for the ball-totally did nothing but added on to the frustrations. Plus the extras in the way of doing nothing but hindering, it was purely annoying. I can't stand seeing, I wanna do something. I am not lamenting about that fact, but instead of how freaking unjust the damn bloody whole thing is. UGH I wanna just scream and sprint my guts out right NOW!

Feeling Fab today was spoiler, I shouldn't have come to school at all.



On another note, supposedly happier but nothing is going in that smiley direction now.
Braces are out.
Won HCI 8-0 for our first match of the season.
I got to play right wing, although not for very long.
Still, I'm glad for the opportunity to.




Why.Oh.You.Ass.You.See.Kay.China.Man

Just had a really really good laugh watching the teamnight 07 videos. Karen's batch, with mickey's army. The Indian dance is totally hilarious, the exercise video and Lucky LeLe's Curry!!! Oh boy I really miss all of them watching that (:

3 good trainings after a few bad ones, and many trainings which ended off without stretching!! Just hope the muscle aches don't come! Free scrimmages are really fun, and I kinda enjoyed Saturday, playing right wing all over again. Although I suck, my cross ins are like wth, and I kept thinking I was a defender, having defensive instincts instead of attacking ones, haha but it was still fun. Set pieces was pretty awesome too, trigger number and secret codes! I got a new bruise, which makes total count 4 now, 2 crediting to my fav budd JPsie, hahaha!

Season is coming really really soon, I'm super excited for it! Wednesday's THE DAY! I'll be back with good news. Promise.

Tuesday's a really exciting day too! I'll be a new girl: without my braces!! Double yay for the 2 years of metal teeth! GlingGling and badneenee, rawrrawr no more metal teeth partners, but I'll be back with retainers in a week! XD