I just had to blow it.
Just Had To Freaking Do So.

I am so annoyed at myself, so pissed with those guys, so scared of Monday to come and its future, so freaking afraid that what I think it is will come true.

Come On! Trouble always associates with me and that Napoleon, since Day 1 I stepped into school. This is not the first, but I definitely hope it will be the last. Just as I thought things might get better, and I just had to do something so foolish, so uncalled for, now we're all in freaking hot soup! Uggghhhhh I don't know what to freaking do anymore someone tell me slap me and tell me!

Afternoon out was refreshing, I didn't return. But once I stepped in, you had to vent all your frustrations on me. I have my own freaking ones thanks. Raawwrrr this is all shit shit shit shit shit and more SHIT! I don't want Monday to come but I have to face the damn music. I'm not running away from what I did. I just don't want whatever is to come, to be in that manner, give me any other shit, I can take, but just not that please. Coach talked to me on FB just now, it really gave me hope. I believe, I trust, I hope. Thank you Coach, I know you won't see this, but really, thank you.

Stupid rants - please ignore this post totally.