YAY SCHOOL'S OUT!!

I fear a deja vu of June Hols, thinking I had all the time in the world, party first-study later. XP

Friday was a roller coaster of emotions day, it was like WHOA! I'm still glad for it.
VJC's celebration was not exactly IJ's type, nevertheless it was still pretty fun! The breakfast thing, camwhoring with a whole new bunch of camwhores, BoonYew and his rockers, all the hilarious videos. I just love VJ's videos, they make me laugh!!

Back to IJIJIJIJIJIJ to see the pretties!!! Almost the whole of 4/2'07 went back. Had some really good catching up, even with the teachers. OOOh I miss WENGWENG and JO TEO and all the others! I got corrected twice for saying LAO SHI JIE KUAI LE! Oh sheesh, at least I still can speak chinese XD

Lunch at Pastamania, followed by UDDERS. The graphics on the walls in UDDERS was so porno, it was funny!
Evil and I joined Joocebomb and her 1T35 for their class outing at ECP, cycling and feeling salty, bridging at Burger King, laughing along with her oh-so-funny classmates. That took away the ):thoughts:( temporarily (: BBBBUUTTT I had to face the thunder faces again back home, for another bout of 'time management+family+balancing+late nights' uhoh.

Bumming around the whole of yesterday, left me feeling nothing but guilty. I'm really getting into the bumming thing, in fact I think I'm getting good at it! Bum Bum Bum my morning out, Bum my afternoon away in an Indian shop sipping Teh Tarik, Bum my night away with the cousins on the floor, mumbling incoherent stuffs. WHAT A BUMMER!

Tears of the Sun, that show really made some incredibly powerful statements. It was the bomb man! Rather moving, too bad it was quite late and I was tired from bumming my day away, I didn't have the mood to cry. XD

Regret, don't we all?
I wish I could undo it
I'm sorry

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do


School is getting a little too much again.
I need a getaway, holidays are coming (:

You remember the struggles and pain you had
When all the good had turned to bad
When behind the scenes you crumbled prayed
For it all to simply just go away...
But when the pressure builds and tears you apart
How are you able to depart
How are you able to still carry a smile
When everything inside is in a pile
-Shawn Johnson

I'm back after a week of hiatus, I curbed my urge to go online the whole week, and that I'm proud of myself. Partly because I'm too caught up with crap to even turn on the computer too. >< So I see the goodness and badness of not having a tagboard already. People have been telling me that I sound really like a nemo in my posts. Dear friends, thats not true. At least I'm trying not to be, really! Positive outlook, yes!

The week passed really quickly, in a flash it was Saturday once again. Our last SS! SM was super cool in the gran's house. SW was even more fun at the court. SS finished it on a rather good note. A rainy day the whole of yesterday, have been caught in it severals. ): Bing and I decided not to make our grand entrance of more than 1 hour lateness into Mr Yong's, and he was pretty nice about it with an Ok Don't Worry! (: Bummed our afternoon away with Tau Huay and the rain.

Had a quicknap before catching up with Grandma, The maid and The dog! Super awesome time with amazing company! Watching the brilliance light up the sky! Korea's was much better than France yesterday, but I still prefer France's finale, it ended off with a really big BANG! I think I was drunk on fireworks, went really off balanced and started singing/spouting/doing nonsense on the road with the granny, maid and dog. XD Walked a lot from Esplanade to The Cathay, before hopping into a cab for Prata at Casurina. This reminds me, trackers dear we have to visit that haunt again sometime soon! JieJie droved us back home, with her fantastic driving skills! XP Thanks beautifuls for the awesomeness last night, although I had to put up with his black horrendous look when I got home that late, or should I say early. XD

I like being a bummer, RockOn bummers!!! :D

A blog is a scary thing. You never know who's reading it. But posting online means free reading. So that shall not deter me from saying what I want, keeping track of my own random thoughts. Sometimes a sudden message from sometime you don't really expect it to come from, can just perk you and it did to me. It kinda made me day and motivated me from that current unmotivated-pissedoff-dreary state of mind at that moment. Thank you dear senior! I'm sure you know who you are, if you're still blog stalking! XD

A certain someone who's calling starts with M and stays under the same roof as me, commented that I'm less happy these days. ): Slap me silly and I still think it does hold some truth. This is -shakes head- not good. I want to be like that kid in the park, happy and carefree. And that I shall be.

SS yesterday was really a big first S of that 2 letters. It was quite fun in a way. Once again, it dragged on till rather late, which got me a bit anxious. Cabbed down with the tuition bud to Kovan, feeding on plain banana bread and GreenTea, how thrifty. Survived half my Saturday and I was glad. Had a relaxing time after that, learning the art of Enjoying Life.

At the usual family gathering, the cousins were so amused at my reaction to tickles, especially anywhere near my neck. I was attacked A HELL LOT; Their entertainment is at the expense of me! XD Well all for the good and joy of mankind, haha. I get bullied by people younger than me. Almost all the time. Bullied in the joking sense, not the school bully kind. But it still shows that people younger finds me bulliable, thats pretty sad. XD Maybe I'm too soft.

I'm off the hook for my Chem E ASS! Yes Yes OH Yes! (: Even though I did it with cheats collated from many, but cheating's the way of the world, isn't it? Without cheats, there won't be truths.

I've learnt one more thing about myself.
I need about 24 hours to cultivate a good mood, in preparation for a good training.
Its long yes, but at least it works.
Sleeping early, constantly talking to myself in my head, if all these for a good day, I'll gladly do it again.

I'm past my emo nemo stage. I have no idea why I was so down the past few days. Guess things are starting to pick up now, or maybe its all in the mind. Anyway, I think I was possessed the past few days man, getting all tired drifty moody grumpy. Sorry to those who were affected.

JieMin indirectly called me short!!! Hahaha, I know I am! But! We were doing the bumping people off thing, and she told me that when I bumped her, her lower arm hurts, maybe because of the height difference. Fineeee! Hahaha! JieMin is getting funnier by the day I swear.

Thursday tmr, dental day! Wheee, goodbye hard good food! See you soon, porridge! ):

emo; fatigue; boredom; I-don't-wanna-go-school-thought;
I shall eradicate these negative thingalings from my head.

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be,
That face is tearing holes in me again

-current earworm- :D

PW made me feel all so angsty, having to travel to China early in the morning (inside joke), determined to be late. It turned out better than expected, once again I was surprised. I guess, learning to tackle different people different problems are all part and parcel of life. ThaiPan for lunch was good, haven't had that in ages--which gave me an uncomfy stomach later on -shakes head- no good.

Had fun again today. In fact, I'm having so much fun these few days, I'm under heavy influence of the past and highly tempted to revert to the secret P word with a 'i-n-g'.

I'm really thinking a lot these days. At times it makes my head wanna burst, just blast music into my eardrums to make those thoughts go away. At times, I wonder if through all these, I'm learning more about myself. Random thoughts once again.
If this carries on, I'm gonna be a really extremely random person soon.
Thoughts are good; Its good to think. My brain is not underutilised .

Thanks for letting me view the new random things.

I suck.
How could I miss Nat today?
The next time I'll see her is probably 4 years later,
and yet my stupid brain, too filled with
nonsensical thoughts can actually miss that out
I am so so so sorry FatNat,
I really meant to text you early this morning
I feel extremely guiltridden now, and will be for the next 4 years
I'm gonna miss you loads!!

Goodbye Nat, Bon Voyage, Take Care
Hope you're settling well down there (:

My head is so full of random thoughts
Mostly thoughts of the other half of my life unrelated to soccer and studies
Its killing my usual train of thoughts
I'm distracted
I'm drifty
I don't want to think about it, it just keeps popping in like a little bugger

I still don't know myself well enough
Or is it just an excuse of the growing up phase
I feel like a darn pessimistic bummer
Who wants to be like an ostrich
Hiding my head in a hole in the ground
For probably the next 10 years
Good bye World

I was and I am sick! ): Didn't get to go for Feeling Fab. Double ):
But owells, look on the bright side, I did feel somehow fab. -Be optimistic- XD

Thursday pretty much passed without me knowing why or how again. School, training, tuition. A typical Singaporean kid's lifestyle which totally SUCKS! But I'm glad I had company for them. Tad of a ): at the end though, but its okay we'll have it one day yeahh! Heehee.

Connect Singapore today! It was so unplanned, unprepared, unfun, but I still managed to get through it. Then again, the company made it fun, and it was quite an experience. Was in Group 18, at St Nicks. It was nice to see the blue IJ pinafore once again, and having prayers for morning assembly. Just short of a mass with Father Michael and some performances. I was the road marshall with a nice Police Volunteer whose name I kinda don't really know. But she was really nice and interesting person to talk to. Marshalling along the whole long stretch was pretty tiring, in the end we camped in front of some girls who loved the "I've got peace like a river" game O.o But the whole event was kinda flop, for one, the president didn't come by in his jeep, two, I bet the whole Singapore didn't say the pledge together. OWELLS!

Connect ended really late, was really tired. Couldn't get to JieMin's house already. ): Another ): Really tired and drifty again today. -.-



I learnt to face up to my feelings
I learnt to express my feelings out, or maybe not?
I learnt that I need to learn to make decisions
I learnt its hard to keep a secret
I learnt that its also pretty fun to keep one
I'd like to learn more about myself

Since tuition started, I've been feeling really good after each lesson, knowing that I had learnt something and done something productive that 2 hours, a huge make up for the BIG GAP = WASTE OF TIME Physics lecture/tutorial in school. Physics in school is really like a stoning or chatting session, how awfully useless. Shane and I even went for the extra lessons on Saturday, almost konked out several times though, but I pulled through! (: -Gives myself a pat-

Friendly match against National Team U-16 girls team today. I'm glad I got the chance to be a starting player. But I was pretty disappointed with my own performance. I didn't relax enough, was too tense as usual. Didn't meet the balls the first time, needed shoutings from the sides before I woke up and not let the balls bounce. I know my trapping is atrocious. I need to work on it. Well at least now I know my weaknesses, I just need the extra time to practise! I'm so motivated right now!! Good news is, we won them 4-3, although we all didn't play well at all. O.o

Feeling Fab tomorrow! Exciting! (: *winks*

But I'm really feeling like crap now. Throat Nose Stomach hurrtts and I'm wondering why. ): Hope this uneasy feeling goes away. Must be that super ultra spicy soup for dinner ugh!