My comp's been out for 2 weeks or so, it was attacked and no one got around fixing it until recently ><

I'd rather not blog out my thoughts and feelings now, gotten rather used to penning them down in my own diary. Comments from others also kept coming in about what's wrong and stuffs, so yeah I'm keeping my thoughts to myself!

Fun Facts (like what I always do to Bethany-Did You Know?) :
! Trngs' include lots of running these days, I feel like I know ECP very well already!
! VJC XC is coming right up! Coach is picking team.
! Watched Slumdog Millionaire with Sock, Xin, Tixi, Nyny, Rachel-it was a really fun event.
! Spontaneous sleepover at Yilin's last night, it was totally impromptu-on-the-spot-set kinda.
! The fruit stall auntie has been giving me lots of free fruits the past few weeks, I guess she recognises me as the girl who buys like $3 worth of fruits on a daily basis!
! I'm drifting (apart)
! I found out secrets that I shouldn't know
! CTs are in 2 weeks, and I still thought they were in 4 weeks.
! I keep seeing my neighbour around school, but I never did confirmed it was her until recently
! Matches against SMU, Queensway, NUS-I'm just glad I've got the chance to play at least a while for all those matches.
! I'm relenting, and accepting the facts now.
! I'm hungry right now, so Imma gonna fix myself a yummy sandwich!

I don't like how this is going.
And its going no where that I'm sure.
Metamorphosis, a great big one.
Turn back time? Nay I wouldn't ask for that.
Get a whole new life, I tell myself.

Freaking no mood to blog, but its killing my insides slowly if I keep this up, so I need a little happiness boosters here and there.

Things that made me happy, even if its temporary:
! Skipped school on Tuesday
! Skipped school on Friday
! Played mahjong on the treehouse with Mandy BoonYew and Chee
! Movie Changeling with Tano
! Shopping with Mummy, even though all we ended up buying was mostly food

Life is exciting, with you around. But that sort of excitement, I'm not sure I can handle.

Its been quite a while, so many things had come and gone, chances wasted, opportunities no more. Looking back, its just a taste of regret. My wish is still there, but my goal has become more of a dream. I'm doing all I can to get it back, if only you would listen and open your eyes to see.

Highlights of the past few days:

-CNY celebrations in school - kinda boring. Paid $1 for the Yusheng that I didn't eat and didn't 'lo'. Thai Pan with the class, followed by trng.

-Chinese New Year
Hong Baos, gambling, pineappletarts-Cookies-Loveletters-Yusheng-Bakkwa, New clothes, visiting. Lost quite a bit of money gambling :/ Was so tired out from helping Mummy at her shop the days before CNY.

-Back to school. Getting sick and tired of it. Sick like literally, I hope my voice don't turn bad, I'm doing all I can to get it right now. The gallons of water I'm gulping down..Oh Shucks I feel like a water balloon.

-Friendly against BAFC yesterday. Lost ): Went for a run after the match with Grace Su. Felt like the first time I ran with her side by side, it felt good. A good run to clear my head and reflect silently, with only the sound of footsteps and the breeze from ECP.

-Teamlunch at Subway. Napped. Family gathering. Gambled again (it's still within the 15 days of CNY) - won some recess money yay (:

Some CNY peeeekturesNing and her fetish for skinned duck!