I AM SO SO SO DAMN PISSED OFF WITH THIS BITCH AT STARBUCKS TODAY!
Seriously what is her damn problem! She makes my blood boil, and I had to resist hurling verbal abuses at her after what she had done, and mutter them all in my head which was already exploding from anger. In the end I couldn't resist, I shouted Bitch directed targeted all shooting straight at her only!!!!

Firstly, Tano and I were sitting at this table studying in Starbucks Novena. Then it became a little crowded, so the staff asked us if she could take one chair, for that bitch and her daughter at the table behind us. So naturally we gave her the seat, and that bitch didn't even thank us, who cares I don't. But the chair rightfully belonged to our seat. Then that bitch started to gossip about us, studying in places like this, have to spend a lot of money of coffee, stay there the whole day etc. So I told Tano that she's talking about us, then we saw her staring at us! Tano wrote on the paper that she's staring. I replied that I know, I can see from my peripheral vision. And then that bitch started to gossip even more!! God knows to who about what so interesting about us. She even mentioned my school Convent girls sth sth sth, I bet she peeked at my file. Irritating to the max, and she kept staring straight at us. Not like we were laughing or talking very loudly, we were just studying!!! I got damn annoyed, I told Tano, let me teach you a new jap word : suge mukatsuku. Maybe that bitch knows Jap, I don't give two hoots. After a lot of her stupid bulky eyes staring at us, she finally moved away to another seat, and she muttered off 'qi si ren'. Tano and I were puzzled at her weirdness, then she walked back to us, and scolded saying you are so rude you should learn some manners from your parents! That did it, after staring, she talked about my school, and she had to drag my parents in. I retorted whats your problem, bitch! Maybe I shouldn't have done that, but I didn't care, she was so damn freaking rude that idiot! Then she walked off, and when she was taking tissue paper, our eyes happened to meet, she didn't back off, she continued staring like crazy, and I just stared back too. While staring, she kept taking tissue papers non stop, like over 10 pieces crazy woman she's the cause of global warming its entirely her fault that the whole earth and even me are boiling up! Tano kept telling me to just laugh at her, so that she will be soo pissed, but I really couldn't bring myself to do it, I was seriously boiling! I wanted to just march up to her and ask her what is your damn problem bitch, why did you say such horrible things! Seriously, I hate her hate her hate hate hate hate her for ruining my day, and from then on I couldn't really concentrate on studying anymore, and I have a damn paper tomorrow and I really cannot get that incident out of my head that I'm rambling on here. I hope she reads this because she has done injustice to the world by just being born! I hate her! Such weird people exists! I am really so pissed! totemo okotta, nanka nakitai! demo, namida ha denai.

It's been a pretty long hiatus again. Just a bit sick of blogging, more interested in building up my farm on FarmTown now! FB game once again haha shit I'm being an addict here. Some activities in my life perk me up rather than the usual studying for (C)razy(T)ests 2!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EVIL LIM MY LOVELY NOISE-MAKER!!!
Hope and bet you had a pleasant surprise, which you almost foiled our plan by going out early. What are the odds of bumping into you, and we did! XD! Love you to bits you crazy zoodledoo! Happy 18th! (:
P.S you were on your best behaviour sitting on the roadside curb, blindfolded and listening to every thing that SaraBra told you! So proud of you!

Sent Coach off at the airport on that day too. Gave him the album, made with love. The video filmed and edited with love. And the box that says Coach Believe. Yupp, made with love too. It just feels so weird that coach is not around in Singapore anymore.

Watched Dance Subaru a rather long time ago with my momma, the show was good, and I sure missed going out shopping and movie-ing with her. Whatever I buy, the cashier just looks towards her, the one with the purse XD!

More array of fun next week, when the parents are out of town hahaha!

Weeks have past and I'm still adjusting to post-soccer life. The diet has not changed much, but the exercise sure have, and I can't keep this up or I'll turn into lard.

Went for a Primary 4 Tao Nan Power Up Camp recently, as a volunteer. Was a station master. It was pretty fun and interesting, watching all the little kids run about, and their childlike innocence when they play. Took charge of the playdoh game and the drawing game with Tixi, imagine running that game with a playful bunch of 10 years old, 8 times! By the time the last group came, we were dying to drive them away, oh they really drove us crazy. Night hike was kinda fun too. Bonded with Tixi and waffles at the back of NTUC, under the bright lamppost, waiting for the kids. Campfire was good, we SMs were like the VIPS, we were invited to sit right in the middle, and we really live up to our SMs name, we were really really high. Dancing along to Nobody by the Wonder Girls, cheering our lungs out and singing all the campfire songs louder than the kids. Telematch was good, we had the authority to shoot the kids and GFs with water guns and water bombs!! Oh and Jolyn's brother is super cute, he told his friend "I thought you wanted to skip very fast, why so slow? Go faster, I let you come my house and drink coca cola" c(:

Some kids just amaze me,

This boy used the playdoh to make a very lifelike telephone. His friend kept trying to touch it, and he shouted at his friend "Don't touch la!" His friend shouted back "What la! I need to call my mother!"

A bunch of kids were playing charades. I told one girl to act out 'Finding Nemo', she acted out the 'finding' part first, but apparently, her friends thought she was 'King Kong'!! Double D if I were her.

And not to forget Tixi's and my first encounter on Day 1 with 'Lehman???', this boy with anger management problem. The teacher asked us to help watch the door, making sure that he doesn't run out. Oh boy he freaks me out totally, he was banging on the toilet door so hard, it seems like it was gonna break into pieces, shouting "I HATE THIS" and "I DON'T WANNA GO FOR CAMP!" He is sooooo scaryy! Even the teachers were afraid of him.

CIP Adopt-a-puppet the next day at Chen Su Lan Methodist Children's Home. It was fun too, but I think I had enough of kids after that, with TNS and Puppet whoa! Had a great time eating and eating and eating after that, first with Ice Cube, then ChompChomp, and more Pandan cake and chips, strawberries at Tano's house (:

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!

We created history on 22nd May 2009!!

The feeling is so surreal. Can't believe its over just like that, we just wheezed through that 1 and half year journey, with so many different chapters in our story, all the hard times. I'm really impressed with how we pulled through and overcame all the difficulties. All the more I just love VJSG TTM (To The Max) !

Celebrated our victory at the usual KFC, family feast for my table (: Some crazy girls went to watch midnight show until 5am!! Saturday morning was 'adopt-a-puppet' with Gling and Tano, followed by bubble tea and pastamania. Met the dick, the cat and the evil for dinner at 'not so healthy' Burger King. Band Concert at VJC, left at interval. BBQ at Bethany's, where we played charades almost 5 hours straight. Watched the movie, Taken, and then headed to ECP for Saucony Passion Run where we worked till we became awfully light headed and 'sehhhh' (if that's how you spell it, the dialect word Tano had a hard time teaching me last time) Sock and I finally had a taste of our long awaited fried yellow chicken from the malay stall today! It was heavenly! Guys soccer match today, and they concluded all the seasons with a huge bang and glory by winning! DOUBLE CHAMPS yo!! The atmosphere was crazy!! Mr Tan treated us to Pizza Hut!! And we topped it up with Cafe Cartel's half price oreo cheesecakes and banana rum cakes after 9.

Just count the calories we've consumed over the past few days, I probably need my GC!!

Fair mix of ups and downs lately, which leaves me feeling very confused.
Really happy and satisfied with myself that I've finally learned how to slide for soccer, although it gives me sore elbows, bruised knees and shoulder and near-astroburns. Plus I accidentally fouled my teammates by doing a sliding tackle from the back XD But the feeling is so fun, 'cause I've always been visualising myself sliding the ball away from the attacker when she's about to score, but I never did have the guts to try. Always admired Xiang and Poansie for how they slide, heehee and now coach taught us (:

Yesterday was a fairly long training, which made us all pretty tired. Met Tano and Lisa and bused all the way down to Bad-Nee-O's house. Watched ManU vs Arsenal with Coaches and the team. Oh Yayyy Man U's Champs yo! It was super hilarious catching it together, its like watching it in VJSG form with coach calling our names, and 'scolding' us for missing the shots!! Tuti totally made us laugh, with our silly imaginations about her. Last night sure was fun. Thanks BadNeeO!

On a post note, we won MJC 5-0 to be on the top of the table. Faced RI(JC) in the Semifinals last Thursday at JBS, 14th May, what a significant date for us. Won 10-1. Kudos to Sher who played the full game, I'm so prous of yous Shersiii!! Now VJSG is through to the Finals coming Friday!! ((: Really exciting, its a must watch match all!

Down side just leaves me totally down and I don't even feel like talking about it. Just wanna vent out the horrible feeling and erase it all from my friends' heads. I hate being 'in the middle', freaking sandwiched and I DON'T wanna make a choice! I CAN'T make a choice like this. This is so tormenting, I wish I could skip school tomorrow. I know I'm not facing up to it, but I don't want to. I'm afraid.

Make history, VJSG. 1 more time, 22nd May 2009

Oh! Shit! No! I'm sick )): Down with a stupid sorethroat and eye infection. Told Mr Lee that I was going home, and he went to tell Mr Ong that I wasn't feeling well. How vague, that ended up with such a big hooha 'cause of the swine flu, that I had to sit there for 10 minutes, taking my temperature twice. Throughout, I kept telling the guy that I had no fever, but my eye keeps tearing and my throat hurts. He didn't listen. Eventually when he released me, he said "No fever", I told you so but you didn't wanna listen! Sheesh.

Match on Wednesday and we won TJC 12-0 ((: Yayy.
Was given the chance to start once again and I'm really really happy. Saw Natesha and Marcia!! Man speaking of the match!! I'm so sad! The only time that my parents came to support, they came at the wrong time, when the match just ended!!! And I don't know if I will get to play much in the next few matches because Vidic will be back, so Rafael will be benching I suppose! XD!

Resting like a log these 2 days at home, sleeping as much as a swine does! Went for a relaxing swim today with my bro, boy I kinda miss that chlorine smell haha!

Getting really really tired.
Falling into a deeep slumber.

Anyway! We won SRJC 12-0!
I'm super happy and glad for the whole game!

Happy belated birthday Huixin!
Happy belated birthday Zabuza!
Happy belated birthday Lump!

I love you all millions!

Ooh I'm gonna trim my hair again later.

Past 2 trainings were so not gentle, I had lots of hard knocks with bumpy bruises, sprained ankle, wobbly-feeling bones and tight muscles. But it feels tad good in a weird sense XD!

5 days since his passing.
4 days at the wake, has kinda taken its toll on me. I can see my panda eyes already, from the lack of sleep. One procession was the ultimate, it totally rendered me deaf for at least half an hour, the noise is nothing I've ever heard, man my ears are still ringing. Mandai brought back hateful thoughts, but I have to learn to let go. I know that he is in a better place now, free from suffering. The lotus picture that the ashes formed after burning those paper, assured me much more 'cause the adults say that it means he has become a Buddha. If it forms footprints, it means that the departed has reincarnated into either human or animals. So I guess Buddha is the best for him (:

It's back to school tomorrow. I'm faced with Physics SPA first thing, and I have no reference to study from :\

I heard from the girls that we won MI 10-0 today, brilliant la you girls! I'm so proud!
Anyway, thank you all, for your care and concern. I'm alright now, really. Love the people man!

I just had to blow it.
Just Had To Freaking Do So.

I am so annoyed at myself, so pissed with those guys, so scared of Monday to come and its future, so freaking afraid that what I think it is will come true.

Come On! Trouble always associates with me and that Napoleon, since Day 1 I stepped into school. This is not the first, but I definitely hope it will be the last. Just as I thought things might get better, and I just had to do something so foolish, so uncalled for, now we're all in freaking hot soup! Uggghhhhh I don't know what to freaking do anymore someone tell me slap me and tell me!

Afternoon out was refreshing, I didn't return. But once I stepped in, you had to vent all your frustrations on me. I have my own freaking ones thanks. Raawwrrr this is all shit shit shit shit shit and more SHIT! I don't want Monday to come but I have to face the damn music. I'm not running away from what I did. I just don't want whatever is to come, to be in that manner, give me any other shit, I can take, but just not that please. Coach talked to me on FB just now, it really gave me hope. I believe, I trust, I hope. Thank you Coach, I know you won't see this, but really, thank you.

Stupid rants - please ignore this post totally.

The world is a huge disappointment.

F R E A K I N G

U N F A I R.

I wish I could change it.
I wish I had kicked harder for training.
I wish I had something concrete to begin with.
I wish I had gone running after training.
I wish it was all a mistake.
I wish I had vented out everything with the ball and the net.
I wish it was different.

1 hour of searching for the ball-totally did nothing but added on to the frustrations. Plus the extras in the way of doing nothing but hindering, it was purely annoying. I can't stand seeing, I wanna do something. I am not lamenting about that fact, but instead of how freaking unjust the damn bloody whole thing is. UGH I wanna just scream and sprint my guts out right NOW!

Feeling Fab today was spoiler, I shouldn't have come to school at all.



On another note, supposedly happier but nothing is going in that smiley direction now.
Braces are out.
Won HCI 8-0 for our first match of the season.
I got to play right wing, although not for very long.
Still, I'm glad for the opportunity to.




Why.Oh.You.Ass.You.See.Kay.China.Man

Just had a really really good laugh watching the teamnight 07 videos. Karen's batch, with mickey's army. The Indian dance is totally hilarious, the exercise video and Lucky LeLe's Curry!!! Oh boy I really miss all of them watching that (:

3 good trainings after a few bad ones, and many trainings which ended off without stretching!! Just hope the muscle aches don't come! Free scrimmages are really fun, and I kinda enjoyed Saturday, playing right wing all over again. Although I suck, my cross ins are like wth, and I kept thinking I was a defender, having defensive instincts instead of attacking ones, haha but it was still fun. Set pieces was pretty awesome too, trigger number and secret codes! I got a new bruise, which makes total count 4 now, 2 crediting to my fav budd JPsie, hahaha!

Season is coming really really soon, I'm super excited for it! Wednesday's THE DAY! I'll be back with good news. Promise.

Tuesday's a really exciting day too! I'll be a new girl: without my braces!! Double yay for the 2 years of metal teeth! GlingGling and badneenee, rawrrawr no more metal teeth partners, but I'll be back with retainers in a week! XD

1 week had past just like that. Results gotten back. The ultimate disappointment in some, especially for those that I had my hopes held so high because of the intense amount of effort I put in. But right now, I've dropped all focus on studies, just trying to drift through these 2 months of school, without lagging, and instead concentrate solely on the upcoming season. Speaking of season, soccer trngs are everyday now. I'm getting really tired, but I have to hang in there because everyone around me is doing so to. And I am SO NOT going to give up now, after all that we've gone through. This is what I've been looking forward to. There were really really bad trainings, adding on to the fact that the papers I've gotten back that day were double boo, it was one hella emo day. Special thanks to Tixi the Small, for being with me, crying for 1 hour on our own, throwing out all the burdens. I know its a freaking wrong timing to be breaking down at this point of time, but if not now, wonder how long more can I hold it in. Emo Budd and I are gonna be strong now, no more tears and we'll just push each other on.

Tuesday was a halfday, really fun time spent at Rachel's house. Scamming her, getting scared instead, eating all her food, watching the movie DOUBT, playing Wii, trashing her in Boxing and Tixi in Tennis. It was pure fun and enjoyment, I need little joys like these (:

Had our 2nd round of testimonial match yesterday. I was subbed in the 2nd half, and I really enjoyed the game, despite the uber hot sun, that made my toes feel like they're on fire in the boots. Chasing down every ball, I like that. Seeing all the seniors once again was really nice, a pity Xiang couldn't come and Bob didn't stay long. It brought back all the memories when they were still around though, and it sure was fun. Like PeiQi taking forever in the toilet, incessant teasing of LeLe again..Well, the outcome of the match was finally good, a win for the juniors alas. This is our last friendly after 17 matches, that concludes the pre-season I guess? With just a few more trainings and we're into our season, I'm all hyped up. But yet there's this little dread in me that I don't want the season to end, don't want soccer to end. Because then it will just be books notes and me, and that's really gay and F-A-T!

SOCCER CAMP '09 WAS ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT!!

The first double trng was rather horrid, something possessed all of us to under-perform and we disappointed not only ourselves, but Coach and the juniors as well, so much so that JTS was cancelled. The CPR talk was really weird, with a 1-to-1 kiss with Mini Anne. Oohlala Pervet De'cruz was excited for that XD! Movie of the Night: Some golf show about Francis Ouimet, a caddie boy who outshone over the famous stars like Harry Vardon and Ted Ray. Another of those inspiring movies that Coach always choose for us (:

Woke up at 5 plus the next morning to go for an early morning run with Coach. End up, it was a SCAM! Coach treated us to Macs Breakfast!! (: What a delight! Back to school and ended up in trouble with TYH for staying over illegally. What a spoiler.

Match against NJC. I'm really really glad for this opportunity to be able to play the whole entire game, given that chance to really step up as a senior, shouting my lungs sore to push up, shift and even waking up our own ideas. I swear I've never shouted so much and so loudly in my life before. I felt so much adrenaline rush, I was so focus on my one goal that my stupid partella injury did not even bother me throughout the game, also thanks to ZhangQian for her partella band [: It was a great match for me, and I treasure it alot, except for some stupid mistakes here and there. I'm sorry to the team, to Coach, for that stupid last goal conceded. I've learnt and I promise there won't be a second time like that. I will learn how to be a proper last man. Versatility is the word.

2nd trng was better, although not perfect. Following it was JTS! The juniors are perfect BBQ-ers, and oh-boy, they are the bomb when it comes to dancing!! "Doncha wish your girlfriend was perv like Jes" hahaha. Three Cheers and Kudos for the Juniors of VJSG!!! Coach and Nat sang songs to end off the night (: Headed to Gling's house for the night's rest. Her house is ultra big, with thousands of pillows, bolsters and mattresses. Betnyny and I actually had 4 sleeping bags to ourselves!

Woke up at 5 plus the next morning AGAIN to start our day off with 3 tasks!
#1 Hike back to school in 30min. We did it!
#2 Get the whole team through the spider web (in 15 min, we failed) Eventually We did it!
#3 Get the bag at the top of the container classroom. We did it!

Butbutbut! I'm really really really really really super sorry to the team and coach, for breaking the trophy. Although you guys may say its okay or whatsoever, I really take the blame onto myself and I'm so sorry. I told Coach this, and I will tell you guys, that if you give me the chance, I will work my very very best, to earn a gold trophy back for you. I promise. Girls, please help me make this not an empty promise. Once again, I'm really sorry, and we'll work hard together for our last final journey!

Anw, lastly was Gauntlet with LeLe the Queen as Falcao's faci. Running alongside Jehh-Min and the juniors Rachel Rachelle Cheryl Rasyiqah, was a really awesome experience I would not trade for another. Although we boarded the wrong bus, couldn't settle on a specific mode of transport, shamelessly begging for money, hallucinating about bread, getting chased out of NLC and ran and ran and ran, it was really really fun. Ended off with team-golden-pillow-dinner, giving out of jerseys and sharing session. It was one emo ending, but those tears and laughter will always spur me on to work even harder, for the Team VJSG that I love. Quoting the perv Jes, You guys are fun, I love you all. (:


Guilt is a horrible feeling. I can't seem to get rid of it. I guess only time can mend it. Both incidences have certainly taught me lessons, lessons I will never forget and never commit ever ever again. But the guilt I have in me, shucks the feeling totally sucks. I understand how Sock feels, when I spoke to her last night, after all the emo sharing. I know I should stop self reproaching as it won't help anything, but ultimately, its hard not to when it fell right off my very own hands. Anyway, Thank you Xin and Ame, for trying so hard to fix my mistake, thank you for all the hugs, Sock, Tano, Mentee, Mentor, Perv and the team. This is random, but speaking to Sock after the match, she reminded me of this: Thank you Nyny, for giving me the confidence to try as last man. You were the one who encouraged me to do so, despite my wavering beliefs of self doubt. And to Ame, I love Climbing, Thank you for last year and this year's camp climbing experiences! Without you guys, I don't know what I'll do.

Singularity in Purpose-that I am all for it now! Bring it on!

It's the March hols once again (:
Went for a good swim after so long. Shucks, I think my speed in the pool is deteriorating, I'm getting slower ):

Met Lum and Fang, had fun with cereals, vouchers and 'cheating' the provision shop, Lum's a total pro at that!

Went for a sleepover with Ning at Yilin's. Watched 4 movies in less than 24hours, my eyes are gonna pop soon anytime! Had loads of fun with Koizora, Coming Soon, License to Wed and 10 Things I Hate About You. Coming Soon is pretty frightening, adding on to the effects: The whole row was empty beside me (Or maybe it wasn't) Stupid Chaba freaked me out. CHABAAAAA! Had a feast load of food before leaving for school. Luckily all the food had digested before the match.

Match against International Soccer Academy. We won 3-2 I think. It was a good match for me, and I'm happy (: It felt really good to run my guts out for the team, chasing down every ball, I felt extra motivated yesterday, don't know where that rush came from, but its good! Had a late late team dinner, much later than usual :|

Watching more movies online now: Taiyou no Uta and Marley & Me!!! I shall officially zone out of the world until my parents come back tonight, with just the computer and I. Soccer camp starting tomorrow! Am looking forward (: Especially to Gauntlet!

So many highlights since my last post! Life has been pretty fun these days, I'm starting to see things in a brighter perspective, I believe there's a happier note to everything. Could be the book that I'm reading, The Last Lecture, which is a small book but I'm taking eons to read it ( I don't know whyyyy ). Its a pretty good book I reckon, it made more of a thinking and appreciative person.

HIGH-lights:
* Ceee Teees are over!!! Finallyyy, gone are the days of hard mugging and non-stop hello panda-ing! Good or bad grades, I really tried my best. I just wanna improve from promos so I'm crossing all my fingers and toes now!

* A levels results are out! Our soccer seniors are unbelievable!! They are super super super clever, they inspire me! Congrats dearest smarts #1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8!

* Happy belated birthday Pat!

* Happy belated birthday Mandy! I'm sorry I couldn't go for the outing at night! Fu Lin Yong Tau Foo was a new experience!

* Kicking around with the soccer girls after a long deprived hiatus. Dinner with them at Blk 85, best Ahballing!

* Sleepover at Betterknees's! Her bed is super shiok, so much so that I fell asleep on it accidentally, and ended up sleeping on her tummy! Tootie's breakfast was scrumptious-8 Fatty Paus, 4 sandwiches, 4 drinks XD!

* Early morning VOG torch relay with coach around the school (:]) , followed by 2.4km (:|)

* Watch soccer match at Pervert De'cruz's house.

* Happy birthday Dick!

NON highlights:
Liverpool vs Man Utd, 4-1 )))):
As quoted by Rachel Termite, "This is tragic"...

Temporary liberation from books and notes feels so good, sooooo gooooood! I'm gonna wake up when the sun is high high high up in the sky tomorrow!

Beaming with pride.

Never did I expect or even dream to be in the top 2o for CrossCountry. Looks like all that trainings and intervals, even when I was grumbling, was not for nothing. 17th, or 15th (minus IP kids category), I'm just really really really happy. One thing I can really take away from this is what Coach said before the race, about not listening to your body when you are tired, listen to your heart. It came right to me at the last leg of the race, making me push hard for my team (: To add on to the happiness, our lovely seniors and grandseniors came back to support us! Now which other team has that!



Eeeevil grannnyy dear, intro-ed to me the world's best waffles! All the waffles in PP, Kovan or AMK, are nothing compared to the one at SingPost! Everyone, GO TRY IT! It's crispy and ultra delicious :D

I get the hint, I get the gist. I'm backing off for now, until its time. But by then, it might just be too late. I'm trying to push all the other thoughts away to the back of my head, and focus on what's important to me now.

My comp's been out for 2 weeks or so, it was attacked and no one got around fixing it until recently ><

I'd rather not blog out my thoughts and feelings now, gotten rather used to penning them down in my own diary. Comments from others also kept coming in about what's wrong and stuffs, so yeah I'm keeping my thoughts to myself!

Fun Facts (like what I always do to Bethany-Did You Know?) :
! Trngs' include lots of running these days, I feel like I know ECP very well already!
! VJC XC is coming right up! Coach is picking team.
! Watched Slumdog Millionaire with Sock, Xin, Tixi, Nyny, Rachel-it was a really fun event.
! Spontaneous sleepover at Yilin's last night, it was totally impromptu-on-the-spot-set kinda.
! The fruit stall auntie has been giving me lots of free fruits the past few weeks, I guess she recognises me as the girl who buys like $3 worth of fruits on a daily basis!
! I'm drifting (apart)
! I found out secrets that I shouldn't know
! CTs are in 2 weeks, and I still thought they were in 4 weeks.
! I keep seeing my neighbour around school, but I never did confirmed it was her until recently
! Matches against SMU, Queensway, NUS-I'm just glad I've got the chance to play at least a while for all those matches.
! I'm relenting, and accepting the facts now.
! I'm hungry right now, so Imma gonna fix myself a yummy sandwich!

I don't like how this is going.
And its going no where that I'm sure.
Metamorphosis, a great big one.
Turn back time? Nay I wouldn't ask for that.
Get a whole new life, I tell myself.

Freaking no mood to blog, but its killing my insides slowly if I keep this up, so I need a little happiness boosters here and there.

Things that made me happy, even if its temporary:
! Skipped school on Tuesday
! Skipped school on Friday
! Played mahjong on the treehouse with Mandy BoonYew and Chee
! Movie Changeling with Tano
! Shopping with Mummy, even though all we ended up buying was mostly food

Life is exciting, with you around. But that sort of excitement, I'm not sure I can handle.

Its been quite a while, so many things had come and gone, chances wasted, opportunities no more. Looking back, its just a taste of regret. My wish is still there, but my goal has become more of a dream. I'm doing all I can to get it back, if only you would listen and open your eyes to see.

Highlights of the past few days:

-CNY celebrations in school - kinda boring. Paid $1 for the Yusheng that I didn't eat and didn't 'lo'. Thai Pan with the class, followed by trng.

-Chinese New Year
Hong Baos, gambling, pineappletarts-Cookies-Loveletters-Yusheng-Bakkwa, New clothes, visiting. Lost quite a bit of money gambling :/ Was so tired out from helping Mummy at her shop the days before CNY.

-Back to school. Getting sick and tired of it. Sick like literally, I hope my voice don't turn bad, I'm doing all I can to get it right now. The gallons of water I'm gulping down..Oh Shucks I feel like a water balloon.

-Friendly against BAFC yesterday. Lost ): Went for a run after the match with Grace Su. Felt like the first time I ran with her side by side, it felt good. A good run to clear my head and reflect silently, with only the sound of footsteps and the breeze from ECP.

-Teamlunch at Subway. Napped. Family gathering. Gambled again (it's still within the 15 days of CNY) - won some recess money yay (:

Some CNY peeeekturesNing and her fetish for skinned duck!

Stay strong my dear, I'll always love you.

Life's a fking bitch.

Is there any more to say?

I'm so overloaded with emotions, I feel like on the verge of a breakdown. But its too early, I tell myself, I gotta stay strong, its only half a month of January. I've got a lot of things inside my head, its bugging me much, I wanna talk to someone, but no one. So many issues in my head, bugging me constantly. I'm trying to put on a facade, a facade of happiness, but I guess its not working. BloodyHell I feel like shit totally. And I know I'm not one who will seek someone just to talk about whatever's bugging me. Forget it Aline Chan, get a life!

I gotta be Strong
I gotta be Independent

Trng sucked totally for me today. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't focus well, I couldn't get my left leg kicks right today, I couldn't see cause of the stupid blinding sun, ugh I hated myself so much today, I felt like kicking myself ! Asshole!

And I just can't stop thinking about it.

I feel so cheated today and I can't understand why. I guess I never will because I have never really been able to. I keep telling myself to forget it. I keep trying to think of an alternative reason why so, or should I say excuse, but the matter just keeps bugging me at the back of my head. Arrgghh please go away and let me be alone in this world. I can't stand it when it changes so quickly, its like the freaking weather. You always make me sad, I don't know why I'm still here. One letter suffice: The letter L.

Hate that I love you.

So school's started, its day 2 and I'm feeling the tiredness already. Thank goodness there's some sexy talk tomorrow, a good day to take a break. School's been nothing but yawns and laughter, especially meeting up with my classmates after so long. Wanling, my laughing partner is back, and to add on to our PC and IPC, we found SIPC! Mandy my slow-walker is back too, and I've decided to dissolve my resolution of 'fast walk'. I've rediscovered the joy of walking slowly, too much influence from the soccer peeps during the hols I guess, that I've to make a conscious effort to walk fast. Of course, Weiting Yanyi Fang who always walk fast, seems like Yanyi have joined the dark side.

Nothing much different about school, except that we end earlier most days, and I'm paying more attention in tutorials and lectures XD! B-O-R-I-N-G!

O's results were out yesterday. I really really wish that all our juniors can make it to VJ, by hook or by crook, through appeal or just barging their way in, its never nice to lose anyone. IJ juniors did better than our batch, but..owells comparing us to schools like Cedar and St Nicks, I have nothing to say :/ My cousin did really well, and I'm so proud of him. Yesterday felt like a day of tension, even though it had nothing much to do with me. I was staring at my phone, waiting for texts from my juniors, hoping in fear that they will text back with a smile instead of unspoken sadness.

We got back our 16PF today today. One of my comments was : I spend too much time WISHING that things will be easier or to fix themselves. HAHA!

My holidays ended off with a BANG with these lovely kids. Dining at Shokudo, replay of scenes, houseflies, Slutch dessert (A Slut & a Bitch), big Canon camera and a whole new spot specially designed for camwhoring-NYDC's old campus! We had to face the risks of potential camera thieves and lots of staring though ): In the blurry rush of madness since holidays have started, or should I say, since 2008 started and I hardly had the chance to meet up with all of them anymore, I almost forgotten how absolutely FUN and amazing it was to just giggle with them, laugh at ourselves and just have a good time together. Presents exchange-the highlight, with the usual loud THANK YOUS and fighting over who gets to give out the gifts first. Thank you to the beautiful six who really made my whole holiday such a lovely one just with that one outing alone. You guys really mean the world to me and I LOVE YOU KIDDIES ! Sorry for giving only a 'grad cert', I promise better next time!

Peeektures all stolen from Juicy-the one with the pro canon:













School's starting tomorrow, OH BOY! If I though the holidays were hectic, think again.
Face it Aline Chan, life's not gonna be easy, but like what a friend said, 'hang on to the good memories'. These kids in the photos shall keep me running no matter how tired I am!

I've been really really happy these past few days, despite running myself tired by waking up at 6 plus AM, helping Mummy out at her busybee shop. Busying myself to forget, perhaps. I'd rather stick to it that way. Love is a strange thing; it heals and it hurts.

What Aline did:

Dragged herself out of bed
Study
Ate a lovely meal cooked by Korkor's Girlfriend
Study
Met Bing for TauHuay
Study at Tuition Centre
Went early for consultation
Tuition = Study
Stayed back after for more consultation
Ran 4.8km !!
Study !
Study !!
Study !!!
Study !?!?

I'm going insane! Why am I even trying so damn hard for this stupid re? Cause I wanna prove to myself and those who have faith in me that I can actually do Chem. If I screw this paper up again, I'll condemn myself to eternal Hell-Of-Chem and just UGH! I'm actually starting to like and understand Chem, so pleaseee let the paper be do-able!

It's TOMORROW!!!
The Day I Die Smiling.

My brains are super fried after almost 10 hours of Studying+Eating+Bumming!

Enantiomers;Coufeee;BoyFriend-BoilingPointForces;MaPa-MeltingPointPacking;Chickeeeeen;Dehydrohalogenation;
TobascoSauce;Phenolphthalein;Caramel;CisTransIsomer;
OhGloria!

Genevieve says:
no more apple bottom jeans
Genevieve says:
it's gloria's bottom jeans

MY BRAINS ARE SATURATED. Like Alkanes. OMG Great I'm Nothing But Chemistry Now. Shut Up Aline ><

5 days of the New Year has past, and I'm keeping up to some of my New Year's resolutions already.

#1. I'm spending more time with my parents, helping Mummy out at her new shop which is pretty cool, collecting cash as the Boss's daughter. I still get bullied by some fierce fat auntie who raises her voice when we don't have the size to fit her huge body.

#2. I'm making a conscious effort to walk faster, at least keep pace with those around me, so far I haven't really lagged yet.

#3. I'm studying for my Chem R-paper now, I'm more into the exam mood already. 4 hours at Esplanade with The Mama & The Sister was more productive for me than if I were to study at home.

#4. Soccer? Yes I'm glad to say that the talk by the 3 of them on the 1st trng helped a lot after it has started to set in. I'm all prepared, come get me!

Anyway, BAFC match last Saturday was good, although we lost 3-1, everyone played well and it was inspiring. However, SMU match 2 days ago was not good, although we won 5-0. Disappointed in my own performance, but that shall not deter me from anything. I'll train even harder and try to be consistent in my own performance. (: I'M ALL FIRED UP!

Belated New Year's dinner with family yesterday at Ichiban Sushi. It was super shiok, I almost burst at the seams/ I feel good, I just used the present Korkor bought for me for Xmas, some peppermint foot soak from Body Shop, to revive tired feet. Hah! It was shiok as well, though pretty troublesome ><

OMG I need a new New Year's Resolution---To Lose Weight! At least 3 Freaking KG! I'm gaining at an insane rate, thanks to the amount I'm eating to replenish my hungry body after trng ))): I need to stop SNACKING! Slap me silly if I eat Junk! Hello Panda is not counted because its my current favourite, but I will limit to at most 1 pack a day HAHA!

The very first training of 2009 today. Started off with quite a surprise plus the love letters and all! I really enjoyed Long Run today. The Under 16 girls weren't there with us today because they have started dreaded school!

Bus ride with her was really different today, it has not been like this for quite a while. I'm not good with words, and all the more worse with expressing my feelings. It was really weird and awkward for a while, for me. I'm just glad its all out, all that I want to say, all that I've been keeping inside me for quite some time. I really hope that this whole thing will not affect any part of our friendship, I promise to be there for you, to support you all the way, so long as you don't turn anal! XD I'll help you in whatever way I can, but please let me be myself, although I know I'm one who is easily influenced. *grins*beams*pokes*psstpsst*nudge* All the way friend, I'll be here always!

40 min LATE for tuition.
4 hours LATE to meet my Jappy Friends.
I really missed them, and the fun times we used to have, especially in Japan! Met them for a game of pool followed by dinner, where Fiona almost 'fought' with the cleaning auntie! It's a pity we all couldn't stay longer for more chat and catching up. The world is really small I realised, how everyone is indirectly connected to another. Well I guess its just Singapore, its tiny! If we stay in Singapore our whole life without viewing the world, our vision will get so clouded and all we know are people who already know each other, and the cycle repeats itself...日本行きたい

New Year 2009 was spent in a different and new manner this year. I tried to strike a balance between family and friends already. Turned up at family gathering, at the insistence of my mum's and my dearest little cousins, who sure knows how to make a girl feel GUILTY! Countdown was at Coach's, with generations of 4 plus coaches. BBQ, The Noose, Taboo and just chit chatting.

Pretty tame as compared to previous years' countdown. I miss waiting by the water till the skies get dark, playing cards with Jeaness until we got caught on the Newspaper camera, camwhoring until the Fireworks lit the beautiful night scene and it was another year again. Smoshing our bodies with the crazy crowd just to get to the train station, tired by happy, all grinning because we saw fireworks.

Still, last night was pretty fun and interesting. Stayed over at Tano's, had good chat until we both zonked out. Prata in the morning, thanks the TanoPapa for the treat, all the rides and for imposing! Travelled far and wide to Mummy's New Shop which just opened today at the New Market in AMK. I love the shop, its pretty, its huge and it has really good feng shui, just in front of the toilet! XD! But business was really hella good today, maybe the toilet does bring good fortune, after peeing, people wanna shop, thats my theory. I'd love spending time with my parents, which I got to the whole afternoon today (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICH HEAH/SMALLIE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC SIM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

and

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
I hope I'd like you better than 2008!

I Miss You By Blink One Eight Two